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2009-05-29T17:07:00.002+08:00

yea, been a month or so since i last blogged.
haha.. still could remember i used to blog everyday in the past.

Just some updates about myself..
Been sick a few days ago over a span of four days, the feeling really isn't good when you know you have lots of things to do but yet physically you're unable to. But i really thank God for the people He placed in my life who took care of me and showed me lots of TLC. haha! :DD

3 cheers to mom & dad,
thanks for staying vigil by my bed when i was still steaming hot.(like always~ -.-) jk..

Lots of pruning and moulding from God recently,
gotta push myself more.. i'm a lazy bum! rawr~
Indeed, i am excited to see more of God's work in my life too. (:

Had my last shepherding with Peixin jus now..
Aww.. really gonna miss her big time.
She's been a really great friend and listener to me.
Thank you shepherd!!!~
You've been an godly example to me all these while and through this one year plus under your leadership, i've really learnt a lot from the way you live your life and also through your love for God and His people. i truly believe that God can use you to impact many more lives as you move on to the NP group. Thanks for giving to the Lord in the TP ministry and the many lives here too.. thanks for the time spent, TLC you showered me with and thanks for helping me in my spiritual growth and serving together with me. i love you lots lots! <3

dedicated to CHAN PEIXIN FAITH! ....hope u do see this! (:

2009-04-04T03:02:00.002+08:00

hellooo! (:

well, lappy's down and using my sis's desktop now.(it's also kinda cranky though..) =\

just wanna shoutout: i love TP Engit Girls 2! :DD
Currently, Chicken Little's in Cambodia.. Maspo in Indonesia & Shufy jus came back today! hahas, really miss these peepos alot~

i really thank God that i passed my sup paper! ((:
Very excited for the new term to start and also the near approaching harvest! woots!
Really wanna see new blood in my cg! (:

apologies to all great hunks and babes who still frequent my blog!
was kinda lazy to update, though truckloads of happenings these days~
Slowly trying to get back the momentum of blogging once again.. ^^
so stay tune yea? :DD

-toodles! (:

2009-02-28T11:46:00.002+08:00

helloooo world!~

yesyesyes! exams are finally over and this time feels weird. =x
it's like normally we would want to do a lot of things and go a lot of places especially after a major exams. Well, till now i still do but got that kinda lazy feeling to not move. HAHA!

Oopsy, been chased by many to update le~
Yea.. so here we go!~ :D

2009-02-16T00:15:00.001+08:00

updated!...

my drafts?
haha.

-more than words,

2009-01-26T23:15:00.002+08:00

i want to blog!!!

pictures up soon,
pictures up soon!!~ (:

so much to say;
thanks Engit 3 and a few others that made this 18th birthday a very memorable one.
<3

-that would be enough for me,

2009-01-22T23:45:00.002+08:00

simple yet happy. (:

beyond description,
i love you buddy!~ <3

here's wishing...
Lem-21st Jan
Ser meng-22 Jan
Happy Birthday dudes!~
thanks for serving God with me! :D
jiayou in leading the TP guys with God! woohoo! ^^

i'm still very excited,
though all the chiong-ing of projects and mind-boggling tests. =\
can't wait for the next harvest period where all the new batch of freshies enter TP!
woots! :D Open up the gates of heaven man! ((:

back to my first love, :DD
-Your love is more than i can imagine..

2009-01-19T10:49:00.000+08:00

argh. =\

2009-01-06T00:04:00.006+08:00

versus

hmm, see the resemblance?

hahaha!~

once again, jus wanna wish you a very happy and blessed 18th birthday sheepo! :DD

really glad to see you growing in your relationship with Christ! ^^
i'm really proud of you when i know of certain decisions you've chosen to make to follow God. i truly believe that God is so pleased with you, His child. continue to put that smile on God's face yea? :D Jiawen Jiayouuu!~ <3

And yes, 2008 has gone and 2009 has already arrived!~
Really am so grateful to God for so many many things in 2008,
the times He has seen me through struggles, tears, emotional battles, frustrations and more. i truly cannot deny that i wouldn't have made it through without my loving Father who has never and will never give up on me.

2008 was also a year of first times, victories and also breakthroughs.
Transition from Yhope to Thope ministry..

Different experiences, many new friendships forged and embracing never-changing principles in life that are indifferent with Yhope's, things that are learnt and relearnt. (:

i really can't help but thank You.

-blessed.

2008-12-30T03:17:00.002+08:00

took time to munch on Pastor Wayne Corderio's podcast. (:

"The more Christ-like we become, the more we find out who we are."
i couldn't agree further.

so many things on mind now,
really hope to take some time to blog them down. =x
yesyes, 2009 new year resolutions! :DD

-love beyond reasons. (:

2008-12-27T02:29:00.001+08:00

He didn't need a reason to love me..

because He's the reason why we can love and be loved,

merry Christmas everyone! :D

2008-12-19T01:04:00.003+08:00

oh boy, ain't that cute? hee~
i just pray that she won't kill me! =x

hahas, yeaaa! Really wanna thank God my beloved playmate, Jorris! Thanks for encouraging me for this Christmas harvest! :DD i know that you've been really uber busy with PSPT, ministry and all, but you still gave your best in inviting for the Christmas services and also constantly labouring in prayer for your family and friend's salvation.. Really wanna affirm you for that great evangelism spirit, that simple heart of wanting to give God your very best and really thank God for your life!~ ((:

hope you see this! love ya lots! <3

wellwell, spent most of time this week meeting people and inviting them for The Gift services. i'm really very very excited, really starting to see how God moves in each and individual of our friends' lives.. how each friend is starting to respond. really really praise the Lord!~ woots! ^^

i really am thankful for my mini group for being a great support to me! ((:

Kalyne: thank God for you for taking a step of faith to step out of your comfort zone to learn to mingle with people even when it wasn't very comfortable for you. (:

Pris: thanks for making a choice to come down to meet people for dinner and all even when you are so tired after a day's work and handling the MM stuffs. Also thank God for your willingness to do certain stuffs i delegate you to help with..(like the study kits' cards) :DD

woo!~ thank God for you girls! ^^ you rawk! ((: i'm really starting to enjoy leading God's people. Not because of the status or title but because through this short two months or so, God has revealed to me much more of His heartbeat for people and slowly i began to see God's love and plan for His people too.. Not only the joy that i receive when i see how what God used me to do has made an impact in another person's life but also growing in my own spiritual life as well, especially in the area of perseverance and dependence on God. :DD

God, continue to use me as i humble myself to Your calling and guidance..

Engit! let's look upon our friends' salvation with the eyes of faith!~ jiayou! ^^

2008-12-13T14:21:00.004+08:00

woahh~

super long time since i last updated. =x

well, thank God for the available time to do so now! :DD

recollecting recent happenings..

1. Shawn Zechariah's 21st birthday!~

omgosh!

really love his house man! from the furniture to the banners.. woots!~ :DD

well, the Elf Yourself thingy that we played with at his house really made us laugh like mad man! hahaha. (:

2. 'A Love Greater' evangelistic event. ((:

and on the same day during rehearsal...

i injured my toe. =x

lol! it's quite funny to me though. =x

the next big thing was of course the evangelistic event at Jacob's place last fri! ((:
really wanna thank God for Peixin who directed the skit, Xueting for purchasing the food, Glen and Kaylene for decorating the place, Lestari and Nicholas for the song presentation, Marco, Su yan and Shawn for carrying the food over, the cast.. Pris, Sermeng, Darren, Mark, Chiamin and Shuhfen for giving their best in acting and our two emcees.. Karchun and Peixin! :DD (i apologise if i missed out anyone =x) hee!

and also, thank God for TP Engit for inviting your friends! ((:

well, though we only had 4 visitors that day, God really reminded me something.
That every single soul is important to Him and no matter how many visitors we had, the effort, time and preparation that we put in would not be wasted and we should give our utmost best ! (:

3. Term Tests! (and END OF TERM TESTS!) :DD well.. same problem faced again.. but shall do better next time! ((:

End of term tests also marks the start of holidays and the approaching Christmas!!~ ^^ woo!~ i'm really excited to see God moving in my friends, sheep, Engit, cg and my own heart! (: 7, 7, 7!!! :DD

The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Time is limited, but are we still having faith?

God is love. (:

2008-12-01T01:25:00.003+08:00

(Yihui.Wanning.Wenhong.Mag ^^)

yeehaw!~
Today is the day You have made and i will rejoice and be glad in it! :DD

yupps, really am very thankful for a fruitful day like today.
Though i was very tired and reluctant to go out initially, thank God everything was in His plan. (:

went to Bugis National Library to do PSPS project with the other 3 flowers.
Introducing.. Dahua: Wenhong, Xiaohua: Yihui, Baomihua: Shaonan, and last but not least... Mei(3rd tone)hua: Meeeeee!~ LOL-lipop!~ (some random stuff we came up with while we were so dead bored few months ago..) hahaha. Well, project is almost done but i really am thankful for the great time spent together. ((: And yea, got to know Wanning a lil' better too as she also popped by today! ^^

After parting ways, took train together with Wenhong along the Red line.
Somehow i felt a strong urge to share to her about God and it was indeed a divine one. Really believe that the Holy Spirit intervened in that 15-20mins ride. (:
No matter if you read this or not, i'll be praying for you.. :D

Afterwhich, i alighted at Khatib to find sheepo!
Was so worried for her luh! hahas, but in the end.. i realised that it was my own blurness =x i misunderstood her sms and thought that she got measles. -.- WAHAHA!~ well, but i do agree with Peixin... "it's a beautiful mistake.." because it was a great time of fellowship Kaylene and i had with her. ((:

Really love you lots, sheepo!~ ^^

so blessed!~

2008-11-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

yayness!~
Praise the Lord for another soul saved! ^^
woo!~ congratulations darling Yihui, you've made the best decision you can ever make in life and believe me you won't regret it! ((:

well, don't know if you're reading this but..
i love you Yihui! :DD

feasted at Kuishinbo with Xueting, Karchun, Peixin, Lestari and Lemmuel at Suntec yesterday to celebrate Princess's 20th birthday! hoho~ And the Princess is none other than...Faith Chan Peixin!!! :DD really enjoyed my time spent eating good food, with great people yo! ((: yupppx, i'm uber quality time i guess. hahas!

went to Acid Bar after trying to catch the soft-toys and playing Photo hunt. HURHUR~ so cool man! my first time entering a pub! well.. a few more months before i'm actually legalised to enter one. hee! =x The live band was great and we just spent the rest of the night there enjoying one anothers' presence. ((:

Last but not least..
I LOVE YOU SHEPHERD!
happy 20th birthday!~ :DD

more than words could convey..

2008-11-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

urber yayness!!~

finally got to catch the movie High School Musical 3 with a couple of awesome dudettes namely; Rayna, Lestari, Charissa, Pris, Jiawen and myself! ^^

really enjoyed the songs and dances throughout the whole show.. made me feel like grooving too you know? hee! =x well, different people have different takes on the movie and i even heard of people who commented it was a movie for kids.. rawr!~ like whateva~ as long as i enjoyed the movie, who cares? HURHUR! ((:

it was suppose to be a Matthew event but still thank God that at least Jiawen and Charissa came! woo~ :DD still praying for that day to see both of them serving God with us! whee!~ ((:

And yes, last Saturday was my first singers' duty! woohoo!~
i've really learnt alot from Mei Hwa and Jo-n about the worship ministry and ministering to people thru' the stage experience.. can't wait for my next duty already! ^^
really felt so privilege to be chosen to serve in the singers' ministry, something i've waited for and dreamt of ever since i was in the youth choir ministry! ^^ thank You God~ :D yupp, God really touched my heart so much during yesterday's altar call. That point in time when Pastor Jasmine made an invitation for people to respond to receive Jesus, and when i saw the first hand that rose up steadily in the midst of the auditorium filled with people praying.. i really felt like tearing, the scene was simply beyond description- three words: "joy" and "God's love" was what i saw within those few minutes where people responded and when we prayed for their salvation. (:

i really am happy for them and it makes me ponder that if ever one day that we loose that joy when we witness conversions, when we loose joy when we see people repenting and turning back to God... it'll be so so scary. =\ So people let's really continually guard our hearts and renew ourselves in the Lord daily! ^^

jiayou!~
Spread it. 60D! ((:

2008-11-05T00:37:00.004+08:00

4 words from my heart;
i love Chicken Little!~ :DD

jus a nice song to share with you peeps! (:

Of All The Things About You

Of all the things about You that i love Of all the things about You that i love Of all the things about You that i love,

i love the most that You first love me!~

hmm, i forgot the latter part of the song! >.< if you happen to know this song, do tell me! hee!~ :DD

2008-10-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

"We cannot control circumstances because we do not know what will happen today and tomorrow. However, we can control how we respond to them. We can also control whether an experience make us a bitter person or a better person. What happens in life is not so much what happens to us, but what happens in us."

Koped this statement or quote from Karchun's blog. =x
really found it so meaningful and it happened to be what i'm going thru' now..

Who would agree that serving God is tough?
*Me waving frantically*
hahas, well.. but more than ever i would never deny that serving God is a joy and to be able to serve God itself is a great privillege to me. :DD

Facing spiritual warfare, many of us fell sick including myself.
Thoughts flying, emotions stirred up.
As scary as it may sound, it is real.
Lord i pray in Jesus' name that You'll be that spiritual covering over all my brothers and sisters, especially the DMM and Leadership team! Guard our hearts and mind against negativity and discouragements! Amen! ((:

yay! thank God for the 12 confirmed visitors in my mini group for the Amazing Food Race this coming Monday! ahhh, i still can't believe it.. the number of visitors!! it is so beyond us but i know that it's not what we can do but what GOD CAN DO! ^^ woo!~ so excited! ((: Really hope to connect all these contacts well and get to know them better thru' the time we are going to spend together scouting for food and travelling! ^^ whee~

Also, we warmly welcome NIJI aka YAN AN into ENGIT 3!~ :DD
my heart just felt so overjoyed to see another person renewing her relationship with God! (: Indeed, like what Pris said.. " We're 13 now, 18 more to break 20 and hit 30!" YESYES! that's the kind of enthusiasm we should have in living our lives for God. It's not because of the numbers but because we see how God moves in both our lives and in the lives of those repented sinners. (:

Praise God for all these blessings in my life,
Thank You Daddy!~ :D

2008-10-21T01:28:00.002+08:00

God nudged my heart,

Do i still see and believe that CG,7 will come to past?

heal my heart and make it clean, open up my eyes to the things unseen!
i want to believe! i want to increase in my faith! gahhh~

all my rantings but yes, i'm reminded of last wk's sermon..
God works in the atmosphere of faith and i really got to trust and believe despite the current situations.

Daddy, help me!~
-i pray..

2008-10-17T00:17:00.006+08:00

wooow, blog's rotting.. shall update now! :D
here is my reflection on my short term missions trip to Kuching! (:

I really thank God for being able to go for this missions trip to Kuching. Though there were many last minute changes, praise God that everything still proceed on smoothly. (: Through this 7 days serving God in a foreign country, my life has been changed and my heartbeat for missions grew even more.

At first, my original intention of going to Kuching was just to get an experience of serving God in another country, find out if i really have the desire to go church planting one day and also to impart and learn from the people there. However, through this 7 days, God totally changed my perspective of missions.

To me, the most memorable part of the whole missions trip would be the days we spent at the longhouses. Living in a not-so-comfortable environment was definitely a challenge and yet a breakthrough for me. I was pretty much afraid of the creepy crawlies, bathing in cold water and not to forget.. cats!! But praise the Lord, i managed to see myself have a small step of breakthrough in all these areas. :D And i believe God made me go through all these "experiences" to show me how blessed i am to be living in Singapore. The villagers there were very hospitable, serving and loving. Even though there was a certain language barrier between the villagers and us, they would still give us a warm smile whenever they see us. The countless breakfasts that they took effort to prepare for us every morning, when we're still sleeping, really melt our hearts. Their sincerity and genuinely love for one another really touches me deep inside, they are indeed people who are just purely simple and joyful from the inside. God reminded me of how i should be like them as well, a child of God who loves Him with a simple heart. (: Also, i would want to learn from their spirit of excellence and servant-hood.. to be someone who gives my best to God and His Kingdom, more of Him and less of me.

In this missions trip, i was given the opportunity to share my life testimony during one of the MCGs. I really thank God for the chance to share my faith to a group of people far from home but i know they share one common thing with me, that is a relationship with Christ! (: Through sharing my life testimony, i was once again reminded of God's faithfulness in my life and how He has transformed and changed my life completely. i am just so grateful.. :D
God also used me to speak a word of knowledge to one of the villagers who wanted to be prayed for to bear a child. As i spoke to her and heard her response, i knew immediately that it was from God and it really encourages me a lot to know that indeed prayer comes a long way and it increased my faith too. (: As we went from house to house to pray for each villager and their family of their needs, i could really sense strongly their love and dependence on God which really made me ponder.. people living under such conditions can be so hungry and eager to seek and also receive from God, how about us living in our own comfort? Are we also as hungry to seek God in our lives?

Had the pleasure to talk to, one of the sisters from Hope Sri Aman, Sister Empina. She shared to me about vision and burden for the people of the longhouses.. as she shared, i could see that sparkle in her eyes and her love for people. Though in the past as she started to pioneer the longhouses, the villagers did not look up to her due to her height, gender and the difference in the language they speak. However, she kept her faith in God and continue to share God's love with them and God sowed a seed in their lives. Now, out of the ten longhouses in Lingga, eight of them has already been saved! All these salvations would have been impossible if not for the vision, faith and perseverance of this sister and God's grace. I am really inspired by her life and God has used her to plant a vision of a missionary in my heart and further convicts me of going for church planting in future, especially in a country where they are Malays. (:
I also am very blessed by the people serving in Hope Kuching. Even though it was their holidays, they took meticulous care of us by being a good host and hostess and they also make sure they bring us to places with good food, cheap things to buy and to enjoy the nice scenery around Kuching. Their sacrificial love and giving indeed made us felt so welcomed. :D We also attended their youth service, Sunday service and half night prayer meeting. It was indeed encouraging to see people from another Hope church serving God so fervently too! (:

Through this trip, i've also acquired skills that can be applied in our ministry in Singapore. As we interacted and shared our lives with the Hope Kuching people, we realised that there were certain underlying issues they have been dealing with.. certain wrong concepts some of the people have. We were very concerned as we know that these wrong concepts are and will be stumbling blocks that would hinder their personal growth and also affect their ministry. So we really prayed for the people as we evaluated, analyse their root issue and spoke to them indirectly through the Holy Spirit's empowerment. Praise the Lord that we saw how some individuals started to shift their perspective and concept for the better! ((: We were really amazed at how God used us to make a difference and overjoyed to know that God will continue to do something in their hearts! :D Through this experience, i've really learned to look to God instead of my own limitations. Our limitations should not be an excuse to our lack of faith to believe that God will move no matter the situation.

Lastly, i am thankful for the fun bunch of team mates that went for this missions for me and i thank God for placing a burden for people in each and every one of our hearts! Yes indeed, want to encourage those who have not went for missions before, do go for it at least once in your lifetime! It's definitely worth it.. Act locally, dream and impact globally!~ :D

Jorris and Magnortoise ((:
Jorris look so motherly hor? tsk! >.<

Baby Mag and Mag :D hee!

simple life, simple faith, simple love for God.. ^^
(the kids are playing with a tiny lil' frog! awww~ )

the last house visitation..
really enjoy the villagers' warm and hospitality. :DD

group photo with Ah Yieng at Hope Church Kuching!~ ((:

buddy and i at one of Kuching's biggest shopping malls. <3
i wish i had the bears at home! HAHA!~

And again, i want to shout out : "Photography is lovely!~" ((:

Jorris and me in the bus on the way to Sri Aman!~
wooooo~ indeed, it was a loooooooooooong journey! =x

group photo taken while waiting for the sampan at Sri Aman. (:
from left to right: Leslie, Jorris, Mag, Lestari and Buma.
(Lem was in the toilet.~)

when we got bored while waiting... hee!
1, 2...3!~ cheese! :DD

tada~
The End. (:
(more to come though! ^^)

2008-10-08T02:24:00.002+08:00

hee!
yesh, i'm back from missions at Kuching. ((:

so so so much to share that it's quite impossible to share in one post.
but i'll find chance to blog it down when i have the time to. >.<
well, i guess i'll be pretty busy from now onwards till school officially reopens..
can't wait for Leadership Camp this friday!~ :D

anyhow, just wanna take this opportunity to just share a little about the mission trip here. i truly enjoyed the missions trip and i really thank God for the opportunity to be able to go for it! :DD

Witnessing how the villagers in Lingga hunger to know more about God and how they are so loving and serving to one another, really makes me reflect about my own life.. i believe in Singapore, sometimes we do take things for granted. The villagers lived a simple life and have their own problems too but yet they are so eager to learn more about God. Compared to us, we ought to be ashamed. =x We live in such a luxury that sometimes we even complain about what we're given, and still, we're not as hungry for more of God in our lives. what an irony eh? hahas.

There's really so much more that i've learnt but i shall leave it to another day..
But one thing that i've brought back with me to Singapore is a burden for the people; both the body of Christ and the lost. The entire missions simply showed me the importance of living a righteous life before God. Sometimes it can be so easy to fall into a life of complacency, thinking that we're good enough. Are we so aware of our lives that if any area in our lives is not right in the eyes of the Lord, or realised any areas in our ministry that can be improved and really do something about it to make it better or make it right before God?

Indeed, people matters to God. And no matter who you are or where you come from, God's love never fails. That i'm very very sure of. :D Through talking to some of the believers in Hope Kuching, i really feel very burdened. Shall not say too much here, but if even believers need God so much... what more those who have yet a relationship with Him? gahh, i'm not good with words and i seriously don't know how to express that feeling.. =\ But yes, i want to do something. (:

-no more fluctuating! ((:

2008-09-29T02:24:00.002+08:00

yesyesyes!
i will be off to missions this Tuesday!~ :DD

really very excited and anticipating on how God is going to move in Kuching. We want to aid them in discovering seeds with the desire and potential to rise up to God's calling, to urge them to take up leadership and that it's totally possible for a student leader to lead! ^^

yup, i really thank God for this opportunity to be able to go for missions after waiting for a long long long time. (: yea, and i definitely don't want it to be a wasted or unfruitful trip.

The following are my objectives for this Short-term missions...

1. To be a blessing to people in Hope Kuching.
-to be able to encourage and inspire them to do greater things for God. (:

2.To learn from our fellow brothers and sisters there.
-to come back to Singapore with a bigger heart for mission and for people.
-increase my evangelism momentum. (:

3. To witness a personal breakthrough in the area of faith. (:

4. To receive a vision for my ministry and my caregroup in Hope Singapore. (:

yesyes, if you're reading this.. please keep the Kuching missions team in prayer! ^^
that we'll be there not only to impart but to bring back a different spirit too, one that is of God! :DD

God has been revealing to me things about love these days.
The heartbeat to win lost souls.. the joy in sharing the gospel.. the eagerness to make every opportunity to sow a seed in someone else's life.. the humility to serve one another in the family of God, just purely out of love.

Qn: Have we lost the passion for people over time?

God i want to be there to be renewed.
i want to love others like how You love them,
see them through Your very lenses..
grow in me a shepherd's heart Lord!

break my heart for what breaks Yours!~

2008-09-21T02:30:00.002+08:00

i must not give up!

i must not give up!!

i must not give up!!!

You're my Lover of lovers.. (:

2008-09-20T00:45:00.005+08:00

hoho!

went fishing with Serene and Cindy today~ (:

Photography is lovely and God's creation is awesome.

Perfect combination of magnificence under a human's point of view. ((:

well, enough said..

let the pictures do the talking bah! ^^

silhouette of Cindy. (:

footprints in the sand. :D

sunset. ((:

specialists trying to catch a snake. =\

a portrait of God's love. (:

creation in it's full splendor. :D

didn't catch any fish today though, still i enjoyed my time spent with them. ^^

i'm quality time one yo! hahahaha~

bus-ed down to Eighteen Chefs for dinner and home after that. (:

anyway, we saw another couple taking wedding photos at the jetty again!

hoho~ shall post the photo up again when i have the time.. hee! (:

anyhow, this week has been rather fruitful. (:

well, though didn't really like do much important stuff, at least i know i didn't waste my time at all. whee~

1. Went for free hair treatment at Aunt's house with my grandparents.

-got to really spent some meaningful time just talking to them and updating one another about our lives. i really love them lots, praying that there'll be opportunities for me to share to them about God soon! ^^

-And Glen said that he realised that i've been to many "treatments" lately and i have to agree with him that all these are indeed blessings from God. woo~ :DD

2.Dmm went to Grapevine! ((:

-Peixin paid for all our food and drinks. =x really thank God for her, someone who really loves blessing people generously. hee, learnt lots from the teaching that night and of course we feasted lots too! haha! yup, many funny things happened on our way home.. LOL! ask me if you would like to know what. hurhur~ Really very grateful to God for this group of people who really dedicate their lives to serve God and His people. woo, let's jiayou! we want to see ENGIT 3 15 coming to past sooooon!~ :DD

3.Xueting's Dmm in sch!

-6 words, "I love this family of God!" ((:

learnt lots from the teaching, "Make Us Influencers." :D

4.Supp paper for CKT!

-really really really thank God for my chairperson, Din, who really took out time to help me in CKT! Despite his holidays and the fact that he's staying in Simei, he still came all the way down to Tampines to teach me! ((: Also want to thank God for Lem for his help! ^^ quite confidant that i'll pass this supp paper. thank You for sending people to help your child in distress. hee! ((:

10 days!~ (:

my 4 prayer points.. ((:

2008-09-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

feeling..
kinda disappointed. =\

sigh,
and it's when we have expectation towards someone or something that do we feel this way at times.. rahh :(
when we place our expectation of people or things, sometimes they fail us. it's the hard truth that we must all know. But i pray that i'll place on hope and expectation on God rather than man or things.

help me Father!!
instead of asking You to change others or my circumstances, Lord i want to ask for You to first change me..

supp paper on Thursday!
i don't have time to think so much about unnecessarily stuff man,
think positive! ((:

hooo!~
Your grace is enough for me. :DD
13 more days and counting! ^^

2008-09-15T03:40:00.003+08:00

say bye to panda eyes! ((:
not totally gone but there's vast improvement.

really needed such treatment cuz many has been saying i always look tired, especially because of my eye bags and dark circles. =\

well, had a not so good experience. =x
ask me and i'll share to you why.
and anyway, it's free! ^^

had a great time celebrating Lantern Festival with my family and relatives over a feast at the Jumbo seafood restaurant situated at East Coast. the food was fantabulous! ^^ hee, sinful hor? >.<>

15 more days to Kuching!~
it's a new week and i want make every day a fruitful one.
new heights with God every day! :D
anticipation..

2008-09-14T01:22:00.002+08:00

woo~
16 more days to missions at Kuching! :DD

i so can't wait. (:

2008-09-11T03:39:00.002+08:00

Casting Crowns - Voice Of Truth
From the album Casting Crowns

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. 'Boy, you'll never win!'
'You'll never win!'

Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, 'Do not be afraid!'
The voice of truth says, 'This is for My glory'
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. 'Boy you'll never win!'
'You'll never win!'

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.

Frankly speaking, i do feel like Gideon in the bible at times..
where i look at myself and say, "my clan is the weakest among the weakest, how is God going to use me?"

i have to admit that sometimes i do limit God's power unknowingly.. i look at my own limitations and weaknesses rather than looking to God for how He's going to work thru' me. For ultimately, all the glory should go back to God! :DD And this song really encourages so much.. indeed, God's voice should overwrite Satan's voice in our lives. (:

i want to live a life that is God-ward rather than inward! ^^

2008-09-05T00:31:00.005+08:00

Feeling rather down,

suddenly had the urge to surf Godtube.

Somehow, God knew what i needed and used a sermon to speak to me.

really, thank You Lord. (:

Dealing With Discouragement

by Pastor Tim Smith.

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=3b33b92e8e7284f67aaf

Indeed, in the face of discouragement we must remember who God is.

causes of discouragement.. 1. Fatigue 2. Frustrations 3. Fear

cures for discouragement.. 1. Reorganise 2. Remember 3. Resist

Daddy, help me to overcome the 3 Fs in my life and replace them with the 3 Rs.. help me turn my focus away from my discouragements unto You. ((:

yay!

another to share with you people. :DD

Serene, Lestari and i went Punggol to fish today!

and we really felt so blessed by the good weather God has granted us with!

whee~ ^^

buddy putting on a serious face with her famous squidward hands clutching tightly to the rod.. =P (don't kill me =x )

Serene hooking the bait on..

and seriously, i am so scared to touch those squirmish prawns which i had to when i hand-picked them at the supermarket early today. =\ And Lestari did a great job at putting on the bait today! *claps* ^^

tada!~

the very first fish caught by Masoplim! :DD

it's a Catfish by the way..

and since we didn't how to handle it, we decided to give to another fellow fisherman uncle. (:

And this was the second and last fish that we caught for today!

hoho! at first we thought that it looked like Dory from the movie Finding Nemo.. hee! ^^

Somehow this fella decided to 'stand up' suddenly, so cute yet what a hilarious sight! HAHA~

yayness!~

caught by Serene! ((:

sunset! :DD

google-d that Kuching has one of the nicest sunset, woo!~

Us! :DD

really had fun with you girls today!

nice scenery, nice people, nice day yo! ((:

jus a random photo.

we saw this couple taking wedding photos.

aww, so sweet~ hees! ((:

well, that's all folks! :DD

2008-09-04T03:43:00.002+08:00

just a little more,
you can do it Carys! (:

i shall do my rantings here and no more,
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!~ =\ *sigh*

so looking forward to the short term missions trip to Kuching! :D
at least something that will turn those frowns into a smile.
cheerios! ^^

2008-09-01T02:07:00.002+08:00

lastest binge! =x

yes.. i pledge guilty to fats. =\

anyhow, this whole week has been rather fruitful. (:
God spoke to me so so much, especially in the area of love and attitude.
The only way to find out what is love and how to love is God because God is love.. as simple as that.

sometimes, loving someone who doesn't respond positively, really wears me out and gradually becomes a burden in my heart. it just seemed like loving him/ her is just another commandment from God that i must obey. Loving that person becomes a task and not something i want to give anymore.. And indeed, God really tested me in this many times that sometimes i just ask God.. "How much more must i give?".

yes, it's definitely easy to love those that love you back but how about those we don't seem to budge? (as yet.) tough eh? but definitely possible with God! :D [1 Cor 13] -Love is the key!~ ((: bottom line: love God, love people! ^^

i'm here to testify that prayer comes a long way,
and when you give your all in loving God and His people..
God'll use you to stir something in that person's heart too. (:
whenever you start to have the thought "how much more must i give?", think about how much God has given to you. we love because God first loved us yea? hees ((:

yesyes, holding on to my baptism name.. Carys, which also means love. :DD
*winks to lestari* ^^

(to be continued..)

2008-08-29T01:35:00.002+08:00

heehee! (:
went out with jingjing and yingying today! though we didn't really do much, surely we did enjoy one another's presence. :D

went window shopping around Century Square and Tampines Mall. afterwhich, we headed down to Fairprice ( their fav shop,) HAHA!.. they got their present for their teachers. (: i was thinking.. do lecturers celebrate lecturers' day too? lol~ =x

next stop was to Ayres to get my bangle! ((:
and i got back the same colour _____. well, i guess i just missed my old one which was lost. =P then, we settled down at Mac's for ice-cream as i was having cravings for sundae! HAHA! we talked and shared much, really glad to be able to catch up with them once in awhile. ((:

no matter where we are, we're still serving the same God! ((:
jiayou yhope,be ever young but not ignorant of the WOG! :DD

[1 Tim 4:12]
thanks shep! ((:

2008-08-28T02:22:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! :D
yeeeeehaw~

and boy do i lack sleep. =\
yayness, can catch up with all my beauty sleep from tonight onwards! hoho! (:

after watching the Beijing Olympic games last few weeks, i find myself beginning to love sports more. Especially, volleyball! ^^

as i observed how different individuals play their game or sport during each match/ tournament, i learnt a lot about their strategies.. emotions.. sportsmanship.. and also how determined and perservering each individual is about winning the game. it's just so interesting to discover sports in another angle, something other than just the score or who wins but the character of the sportsman or sportswoman. (:

isn't our spiritual walk with God the same?
no matter whether we run, walk, swim or fly towards the end of this race, we only have one end in mind.. which is when we reunited with God in heaven to rule and reign with Him. God is never going to stand at the finishing point with a stopwatch to record how long we took to reach the finishing line nor check how many medals of honour and achievements we had won for ourselves along the way. But God looks at how we have came all this while, how we've been transformed day by day as we approaches the finishing line. (:

[1 Corinthians 9:24-25]

24 Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.

25 Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever.

And at the end of this race, i want to be able to say that "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." -[2 Timothy 4:7] ((:

let's grow our character! ^^

2008-08-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

well well..

much has been going on for the past few weeks i shall say.

aside from the mind-boggling mugging week,
it was such a blessing to be able to praise and worship God, together as a whole congregation, under the night sky.. stars and not forgetting the fireworks! HAHA~! :DD isn't God's creation and the works of His hands just simply amazing? ^^ hee!

somehow certain things cropped up before J.U.M.P and was feeling rather low. But God never fails to amaze me with His unfailing love and His presence, was very much assured and im'ma happy girl again yo! ((: Indeed, one word from heaven can change the world and what more a person's life. (:

and.. it was our dear Shuhfy's birthday too! 24th Aug 2008~ woo! kinda had a 'wacky' birthday bash for her with all those interesting nuggets and the chi-bu-wan-de Subway! hoho~ we also dinner-ed at Saprino that night, ordered Double pepperoni and Naspolitana which Px challenged Lestari to say out the order to the waitress as "Maspolitana!~" HAHAHA~ and i just realised that i've always still been confused over which hand holds the fork and which holds the knife.. =x

anyway, tomorrow's my last paper!!! :D
i just can't wait for my holidays~

ahh,
God i want to pass ckt and dfund! =\

2008-08-21T03:15:00.002+08:00

that uncomfortable feeling, irks me so. =\

but i know it has to be what God wants to prune me in. (:

yesterday was 20.08.2008!
how interesting :DD

spent some time praying and just seeking God,
truly a divine exchange. thank You Lord. ((:

Qn: Are we seeking God even more in times of exams and ministry?

-every deeper life moments with You, (:

2008-08-19T01:29:00.002+08:00

[Jeremiah17:7-8]

Daddy, help me to trust in You and the possibilities that Your hand holds..
nothing is impossible with You!~ ^^

latest fetish..

That's When I Love You
by Aslyn..

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when i love you
I love you just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when i love you
I love you endlessly

And when you're mad cuz you lost a game
Forget i'm waiting in the rain
Baby i love you
I love you anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cuz that's when i love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more i learn
The more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when i love you
When i love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cuz the movie it made you cry
That's when i love you i love you a lil' more each time
And when u can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when i love you
I love you more than you'll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby i love you
I love you anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cuz that's when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more i learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when i love you, i love you no matter what

That's when i love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more i learn
The more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when i love you when i love you
No matter what

No matter what

that's all folks! :DD

2008-08-18T01:27:00.003+08:00

spent a real meaningful and fun day out with Pris and Peixin today! :D

we went to shop around town, ate at an Indonesian food outlet at Cineleisure then caught The Dark Night there. the movie was superb and the sound and visual effects were simply awesome and thrilling! ((: well, it was hilarious to see Pris jump at certain times of the movie when the sound was so sudden. HAHA~ =x

it was just more than what we ate, do or even when we chatted.. it was the time spent enjoying one another's presence and also sharing our lives with one another that is the key. (: whee~

notice myself sighing away as i stare at my laptop, realised that i was actually worrying about something..

[James1:5]
truly, this verse came aptly to me.
Lord, i'm totally clueless of what to do next, but Lord, please guide me through this..
help me to grow so much more in my mental capacity, wisdom and love so that i would be able to help her better. i thank You in advance,

Amen!~ :DD

2008-08-12T00:45:00.002+08:00

when i look upon my life, i see God's faithfulness..
when i look at my weaknesses, i see God's grace..
when i look back at my life before i came to know God, i see God's mercy..
when i look at the people around me, i see God's unconditional love..

it really stirs something in me,

Lord may whoever that bothers you bothers me as well. You must be greater and i be less.. (:

F.A.I.T.H! :D

2008-08-11T00:55:00.003+08:00

woo~
had my first ENGIT Family Day at Pasir Ris park today! ((:
it was really a great time of fellowship, games and feasting! hahaha~

well, started off my day at Peixin's house with 3/4 of the cg. We met at 9am to cook and prepare food for the retreat. there were chicken wings and egg mayo for the sandwhiches. At first was rather cynical about my own suggestion for preparing egg mayo cuz it's been ages since i've last stepped into the kitchen but praise God, it all turned out great and yummy! yay! thank God for ENGIT 3's help and for all of you who woke up early to prepare the food! :D

After all the cooking, we took cab down to Pasir Ris park as we were already late. The games we played were really awesome and i believe everyone had fun! woo~ thank God for Xueting and the games team! :DD Jiawen told me that "everyone here really knows how to cook leh!" HAHA~ ENGIT 1,2 and 3, thank God for your effort in preparing the food! we're the chefs of the future!!! =P hees.

sheep, really enjoyed my day spent with you and the family of God today. ((:
yayness~ :D

somehow, somethings triggered my thoughts for a moment..
God, it doesn't feel good at all. =\
my weak spots, my inadequecies..
God i want to know that You're greater than all these.
it's not about how weak i am but how strong You are. (:

G.S.K.B! :DD woo~

2008-08-08T00:31:00.001+08:00

this baby is just so cuteeeeee!~

hahas, sometimes i just muse over my sillyness.
G.K.B! I love You Daddy! :DD

2008-08-04T23:46:00.003+08:00

congratulations my dearest Jiawen aka Chicken Little! =P

On this day 4th August 2008, Jiawen made the best and most important decision in her life which is to receive Jesus into her life as her personal Lord and Saviour! :DD

the joy is just so unspeakable, to see someone coming to know God and crossing the line of faith! ((: furthermore, this friendship forged is such a great encouragement and blessing from God to me. This girl with such a simple heart showed me what true friendship is and can be. (: i believe with all my heart that she's gonna grow so so so much more in the Lord as she walks with Him daily! ^^ i love you Jiawen!~

Indeed, salvation is free for all but commitment comes only when you love something. (: so let's all give our best in whatever we do for the One who love! ENGIT, 40 by end Aug! jiayou, it shall be done. Amen? :DD

[James1:4]

2008-08-02T01:36:00.003+08:00

continued as promised. (:

well, i believe a picture paints a thousand words.. though my drawing ain't that fantastic. =x

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

2008-07-30T19:31:00.003+08:00

i've lost nothing yet i've gained so so much more.
these things that sometimes i just neglected, overlooked..

i gotta leave that scratch, abandon that dungeon of darkness and remember the beginning.. of how far i've came and not how far i still have to go. (:

Thank You Daddy and _______. :D

(to be continued..)

2008-07-27T01:59:00.002+08:00

finally! a post with picture! woo~
hehes, really wanna thank God for this woman. hoho!~ :D

thanks for sharing your life with me, encouraging me, listening to me and serving God together with me. i believe your life has inspired many and many lives are touched by you! really glad to have such a loving and caring sheepmate, buddy and friend. ((: continue to serve God with that humble spirit and love people for who they are, i'll always stand up for you lady! jiayou jiayou, 4 more to unit size!~ :DD remember our goal? *smiles*

let's do it for Jesus! ^^ love ya buddy!~

agape, Carys. (:

2008-07-26T01:51:00.002+08:00

Set The World On Fire
by Britt Nicole.

Lyrics:
I wanna set the world on fire
Until it’s burning bright for You
It’s everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?

I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There’s nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do

I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father’s hands

My hands my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me

I wanna set the world on fire
I wanna set the world on fire, yeah

I’m gonna set the world on fire
Set the world on fire

thank God for that particular sister that shared her life to me.
thank You Lord for granting me the courageous to be daring to be vulnerable, to be open about my weaknesses to people. thank You for letting me know that i'm not alone and that it's only when i'm weak that i'm strong once again in You. (:

i'm looking forward to see myself having a breakthrough in this area of my life. the constant struggles within me are frustrating but Lord, i'm gonna trust in You..

meaningful lyrics that expresses my heart's cry,
(to be continued..)

2008-07-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

i saw,
clearer than ever.

all my weaknesses that i cannot hide, all those an eyesore.
i feel so small, so naked and so ugly..
all these feelings just came back to me all at once.

with all these mixed emotions and struggles..
God, can You really still use me?

S.T.O.P!!!

Lord, i really don't want all these negativity in me.
i may struggle but i don't want to be defeated!
may my heart and mind be fully Yours..

-i surrender..

2008-07-21T01:01:00.003+08:00

noticed how much i really treasure memories,..

sorry dad, i didn't mean it. =\

but still, praise the Lord! nothing was lost! woo~ :D

went bowling with my family today as an early birthday celebration for my mom. (:
loads of funny things happened throughout the day and i believe that this wholesome time spent together has knitted us a knot closer with one another. ((: i guess maybe sometimes i just ain't that good at expressing love but one thing that stays engraved in my heart is that i'll always love them as a blessing from God and i'll never stop living out/ sharing my faith to them until they come to know Him. yes! i'm really convicted about that. ^^

ps: will update photos soooon!~ :DD

2008-07-19T02:43:00.001+08:00

reminded,

wept,

pondered..

2008-07-06T22:35:00.003+08:00

spent some time catching up with the Ex-Engit 4 peepos at Sentosa today.

we celebrated Pris's and Daphne's belated birthday! ^^ and it was really a splash, literally.. HAHA! Dennis Chua the lgs poured a whole bucket of water on me without me knowing, and the best part is.. i didn't bring along any extra clothes. =\ felt super eeky man!

left earlier to join my family as it was suppose to be a family day today.
dad drove us down to Kallang's KFC and after the fattening meal, we headed down to Kallang Leisure Park for a walk. well, it's a pity most shops were either not opened yet or already closed. But nevertheless, we managed to check out the Kallang Bowl and the arcade. Really could see how much dad and mum love to and miss bowling during their dating days through their gaze on the players.

yay! so excited man, we'll be going to bowl as a family on mum's birthday! woo~ :DD Arcade was great too. we played the basketball thingy pair by pair and mum kept laughing when i had to jump to shoot each time as i'm vertically challenged. HAHA! i'm secure k! =P Also, the way my brothers' attempt to shoot but the ball came flying at them really tickled me pink! lol. really enjoyed the time spent together with my family and i'm so blessed to see how God has changed things in my family gradually. Thank You Lord.. ((:

It's so true that love is tested the most when you're living under the same roof as someone else. we see one another's flaws and weaknesses each and every day that sometimes love can become so conditional. Seeing the lives that they're living, after financial wealth, worrying that we may not have enough to live on, after report cards filled with A grades, after friendships that they thought they could depend on emotionally and even searching within themselves for someone who truly understands them beyond the surface.

i'm greatly burdened.
Because i have tasted the fullness and goodness of Christ in my life, i know that the idea they have about a fulfilling life are just merely chasing wind. God, i believe You've placed me in this physical family for a reason. Lord, use me to touch their lives in small and big ways so that they'll see that You're indeed real in my life. (:

And anyone around can see, just how good You've been to me.
For all my friends who don't know You, i pray that You would save them too..

Qn: What is my burden? Why am i convicted about what i'm convicted about?

2008-06-28T14:47:00.003+08:00

shepherding yesterday was awesome!

really spent some quality time with dear Faith Chan Peixin! woo~
we feasted at Bedok 85 then bus-ed down to Fengshan CC, initially planned to sing ktv. However, the bookings were all full and we had to wait for the next available room at 10:25pm, so we were like forget it.. haha! plenty of next time yea? :DD And after that, we bus-ed down to Tampines for shepherding at Ya-Kun. so cool man! it was my first time going to Ya-Kun! hehe. the iced Milo and half-boiled eggs were yummy ^^ but i kinda feel fat after all those binge-ing.. zzz -.- HAHA!

was again challenged to rise up.
i cannot deny but i was really scared, fearful.
to me, all these just feels so so new.. =x
But indeed like what Px said, " Perfect love casts out all fear."

really got me thinking..
"what is my burden?"

meditating on [Exodus 3-4:17].
God may You reveal even more of Your revelations to me.

how wonderful, how beautiful..

2008-06-22T20:52:00.006+08:00

A.) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B.) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

C.) Have FUN!

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

i'll dwell on it a while and move on from there. (:

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

to hold my own praise and worship concert, witnessing crowds and crowds of people coming towards the front during altar call responding to want to know God! ^.^

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?

held in a church, dressed in my best, walking down the aisle with the man i love, followed by a pair of lovely bellboy and flower girl behind us, with everyone i know witnessing the ceremony. HAHA, didn't really go and think of it actually.. =P

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

No sweat! my future's in God's hands! :DD

#5. Do you like cheese ?

yeaaaaaa, you bet! i love 'em! ^^

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

agree with Px man! to be loved by someone i love. woo~ but if i have to choose one, i think it's more blessed loving someone because God has made it possible for us to love! ((:

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

when God confirms that i'm ready! :D

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

hmm, don't think i'll like someone who is already attached bah.. but well, if that's the case, i'll give my sincere blessings as i know he's not my Prince charming.. HAHA! >.<

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

i think so.. lol!

#10. What is the most heart breaking moment for you so far?

when i saw relatives leaving this Earth without having a relationship with God, people who once had a relationship with God leaving Him and people who are like the living dead.. living their lives aimlessly. =\

#11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?

as gorgeous as ever.. reputable interior architecture designer?.. a singer with a voice that capture souls and melt hearts?..don't know about all those but definitely.. a powerful woman of God! ( and of course the as gorgeous as ever part! ) ^^

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
God, family, ENGIT, brothers and sisters in Christ and friends. ((:

#13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

fellow spongebob fan! woo!~ so i say.. he rocks! :DD

#14. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?

married but poor.

#15. What is the first thing you do every morning?

SNOOZE! lol!! bad habit.. aye =\

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?

yaba daba doo!~ there's shouldn't be any half hearted-ness in whatever we do yea? so let our yes be a yes and our no be a no! wooosh~ (:

#17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?

very unlikely for stuff like this to happen to me because it would take be some time to even realise who i had fallen in love with! HAHA! >.<

#18. What type of friends do you like?

someone who accepts me for who i am, sees my strengths and not just my weaknesses. someone who sincerely care for me and will try their best to go thru' thick and thin with me. :D but still i will accept any friends and see them as how God sees them! ((:

Person who tag me:
Ser meng.

People whom I tagged:
none.

but well, anyone who wishes to give this quiz a try can go ahead! ^^

that's all folks! (:

2008-06-22T01:16:00.003+08:00

woo!~ jus within the short two weeks of term break and i've caught two movies and watched one of them twice. woolala.. pok! >.<

last Fri, i went to catch Kungfu Panda with a bunch of weirdos.. namely; Chiamin, Marco, Serene, Glen and Lemmuel! (kidding la! =x) yea, the movie was seriously a killer! we laughed and roared (Glen) in the cinema, the movie was just hilarious. ((: i'll give a two thumbs up for this movie man! because it even got me laughing even after we've stepped out of the cinema! LOL!~

anyhow, as i praying in service today, God reminded me of a quote in the movie. This line is quoted by Master Wugui which goes something like that... "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift, that's why it's called the present.." i am really thankful for the little reminders God gently drops in different times of my life. i believe as human sometimes we get carried away in our work and busy lifestyle that sometimes we forgot to go back to the Ultimate Power source of life, God. And many a time, life just seem to get mechanical.. rushing towards the next destination or running through the day's schedule one agenda after the other that we forget why we're doing what we're doing, forgetting how having a thankful heart is like. Indeed, every day is a brand new day with God! Let's live everyday to the fullest and give our best in whatever we do for Jesus and not forgetting to give thanks no matter the situation.. because present is a gift yea? hehes! :DD

yea, haha i seem pretty quiet today man. if i've ignored you or spaced out when you're talking to me today, i'm really sorry yea? wasn't feeling that good today with all that dizzy spells and headache. =\ woo!~ pray that God'll heal me! IJN, amen!! ^^

your tender love..

2008-06-19T01:44:00.003+08:00

well, alrite...
that's just for laugh k!! >.<>
taken by Xueting after celebrating Zephanie's belated birthday at Bugis. ((:

woo!~ thank God for everyone who worked their butts out for the Lord this ESS! you people rock my socks man! ^^ yep, really looking forward to the Engit retreat at the end of the month! :DD

had fun eating at Chompchomp with Lem, Chiamin, Rayna, Jiasheng and Job today! (: Chiamin,we shall go for a food marathon someday yea? ^^ just really enjoy spending time with people, be it playing sports together, studying together, dinning together or just sitting together not saying a word really greatly lift up my spirit! :D

i really love people alot alot and i wish God can expand this love in me into a greater burden for lost souls. afterall, let's major on the major and minor and the minor because sharing the gospel to every single one living on this Earth is ultimately why we are here for. ((:

let's not give up in doing the work of God yea? jiayou TP Engit and Bizart peepo! ^.^

koshalabarabakanteh~ ahhhh!~ God, you know how i feel now. God, carry me thru' these storms!

i trust in you.. (:

2008-06-11T00:24:00.002+08:00

END JUNEEEEEEEEE!

hey peeps! still remember the personal goals that we've set in Arete camp?
still remember TP's goal of witnessing 100 saved souls by end June?

guess what?
we're already in the month of June and racing towards the last lap of the race towards June harvest!!! :D

i'm really so so excited, can't wait to see the many friends that will respond to God's love in this month of June. well, definitely, conversion doesn't only happen on saturdays but it happens everyday! ^^ really saw how many of the brothers and sisters giving their all in evangelising and sow-ing these few weeks. some made deliberate effort to meet up their contacts, some stepped out of their comfort zone, some were faithful in going down to evax and many others desire to make their lives right with God so as to see God's hand move during this period of harvesting. ((:

i'm so so so so proud of you, fellow co-labourers of Christ! our effort will not be in vain for God honours those who place His kingdom as priority! ^^ something that i've learn in the midst of all the evaxing and sow-ing is that what really matters most at the end of the day is not whether how many converts we have or whether the time spent doing God's work reaped any result, but most importantly, God looks at our heart attitude in serving Him. Spirit is key! (: so ENGIT 1, 2 and 3, let's give God our 100% best simply because He deserves our best yea? :DD

B.Y.S.S, i will go!

jiayou TP! 100 person campus here we come!! :DD

2008-05-17T01:26:00.002+08:00

21 500 plus people have lost their lives, family members or even loved ones just in a flash.

it was an unavoidable and unpredictable calamity that noone could have seen it coming. dead bodies were excavated from the debries one after another, children so tender in age have became orphans overnight, people lost their limbs just to be able to save their own lives, families were broken, homes were destroyed, many were left to starve in a town where no form of communication were accessible due to the damage the earthquake has done to the phone line wires..

the very next call that the family members receive would either be a good news that they are safe or a bad news of a passing of someone..

i was watching the TVBS news on cable tv and i just can't help feeling so so burdened.
At that few minutes, i witnessed the fragility of life and the fine line that draws between life and death. Noone ever knows what might happen in the very next moment of their lives. would that soul be a saved one or a soul that is "lost" for eternity?

i could really sense the urgency of spreading God's love, the decreasing amount of time left and the vast amount of people who have yet to come to know God..

i got to and want to do something! the Kingdom Of God must keep advancing! Lord, pls transform this burden into holy discontentment and make me into a vessel that channels forth Your love to the people around me through my life. For You are the Author and Perfector of our faith and only You have the power to save and transform lives.

And if you're a pre-believer and happen to be reading this..

i really wanna share with you that, EVERYONE NEEDS GOD! and God really really loves you unconditionally. (: this God that i've been serving is so so tangible and real in my life, there's no better way i could express this statement out than to tell you that you've really got to experience God yourself in order to know how good God is! :D

all these spells my conviction and i'm all into it! ^^

Go TP go! ((: -100 person campus! game bo? :D

2008-05-11T00:34:00.004+08:00

hellooooooooo!~

sorry to all devoted readers! >.<
i know i haven't been updating my blog but i don't intend to let it stay dead. ((:
much has happened recently...

from the goodbye to ex-ENGIT 4 to welcome new ENGIT 4...
from pigcow to big butt...
from honeymoon to muggeration...
from normal classmates to great cool pals..

woo!~
so so so so so much to share,
pls stay tune! shall find time to finally blog again!

cheerios! ^^

2008-05-01T05:30:00.002+08:00

ask me why am i still awake at such unearthly hour.

ans: ENGIT 4 is at Geckting's house overnighting (studying/mugging/slacking/fellowshipping.) LOL!

hahas, this is just a super random post out of my zonk-iness. >.<
so sleepy now man.. zzzz~

meeting kenny, wei guang, nicholas and ji xian in 7 hours' time.
going to Bugis to shop for bagpack and catching Ironman after that! woo!~
and afterwhich, we'll be heading down for TP's BBQ! woo!~ jiayou those in food com, preparing the BBQ food, logistic, drinks com, ICs and everyone bringing their friends down or helping to entertain the visitors later! everyone has a crucial part to play no matter what we are suppose to do or take care of! go people go!~ :DD

let's continue to labour in prayer that tomorrow's BBQ will be a success! it'll aid as a bridge to connect to our contacts/friends/classmates, and soon that seed sown in them will bear fruits as they come to receive Jesus into their lives soon and very soon! woohoo!~ jiayou everybody!! ((:

2008-04-25T01:54:00.002+08:00

I Can Only Imagine

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

[Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

Lord, may my heart be ever so tender towards Your word.. may my soul be ever thirsty for Your presence.. may my life be moulded in Your hands so that i may be more and more like You each day..

i don't want to just imagine but,... i want to live a life that puts a smile on Your face.. (:

agape,
Carys.

2008-04-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

woo!~
school had been awesome so far. :DD
class Q806 you people rawk! ^^

we met for breakfast today though not everyone turned up =\ had a good time knowing one another better. during break, manage to get the class to go Mensa have lunch together (well, not at same level though, cuz there weren't enough seats upstairs.) after school, some of us went BB tea-ing at A1 bubble tea shop! ^^ then went back to TP to find the Engit peeps for dinner. (:

tiring as it was a looooooong day and didn't sleep much the night before. hahas. i'm glad for i know God is still with me and has never let go of my hand. (:

21st April 2008 , Mon.

first day of school was fantabulous! ((: was so scared that i couldn't click with my classmates as i wasn't there for the orientation the week before because i was down with throat infection. and guess what?! God blessed me with so so so much more than what i expect to receive. i got to know the whole class and most of them were quite on one when you ask them to chill together or something. hees! ^^ lessons were fun despite the bore, all thanks to ZHU WEI GUANG GUANG GUANG GUANG! haha! :DD

Had harvesters' meet after that. i was really afraid as it was my very first time playing guitar in front of the whole Unit and ministering to them. Despite my linited skills, God added upon me with the annointing of His presences and assurance. God answered my prayer eversince i strummed the first strum on my guitar, i was super duper tired after a long day at school yet God strengthened me physically and spiritually instantaneously! ^^ i could feel God's presences so tangibly during worship that i could help but tear. i believe that this is a breakthrough in this area of me ministering to people, thank You Lord! thankiew Xueting for believeing in me! :D

God is good all the time, no matter the circumstances. :DD

2008-04-18T01:21:00.003+08:00

alrighty, this shall be a random post! ^^

well, the story goes...
i was asking Lemmuel Ang Yong Xiang to help me check out my timetable as i've yet to get my matrics card. and he needed to know my fullname, so... (read on! )

[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
haha hey wats ur surname?
+CaRyS+:
Gorgeous
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
eh
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
LOL..joke?
+CaRyS+:
hahas
+CaRyS+:
joke meh?
+CaRyS+:
i'm serious
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
haha..really
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
i dont know gt this surname de leh?
+CaRyS+:
my fullname is Magdalene Carys Gorgeous
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
LOL..omg
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
u no chinese name?
+CaRyS+:
err
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
i cant find ur name in the list..lol
+CaRyS+:
i dun like my chinese name
+CaRyS+:
LOL
+CaRyS+:
okok
+CaRyS+:
Ong
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
chey..ur surname ong
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
lol
+CaRyS+:
wahh
+CaRyS+:
at first u really believe?
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
ya
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
i went to type that out somemore leh
+CaRyS+:
omgosh!
[32/60] Mr אֱלִי:
rith..shi hua
+CaRyS+:
i'm so gonna blog abt it!

to think he believed that my sirname is Gorgeous... LOL! >.<

well, that's all folks! :D

2008-04-14T21:26:00.006+08:00

woohoo!~

shall say that i've learnt something in this looooooong break.

guess what is it? *drumrolls*

fishing!

yup, below are the pictures of my first time fishing with Serene, Samuel and his friend. (:

serene singing "rain rain go away!" LOL.

well, she's just praying that God'll send the rain from Singapore to M'sia. HAHA.

how cute of her! >.<

and God answered her prayer! the clouds moved to the other side after a light shower. :D

tada! this is the tiny winy crab that Samuel's friend caught.uhh.. OH YAR! his name is Jay. (: (ps; slipped off my mind.) =x hahas, he reeled up a huge stone and we thought it was a stonefish at first! LOL. so, in the end... we found this cute lil' fella in it's home. ((:

well, though in the end we didn't caught any fish, i really had fun with her! it's great to learn and experience new things yea? i believe that God wants us to continually learn new tings too! :D

and this is the well-known East Coast Park beach! (:

went to fish with serene and peychyi yesterday!

i jus love the breeze, sand and the blue sea man! awesome!~

2nd time fishing! whee!~ though i didn't stay long, it was great spending time with them both. :DD

serene setting up the equipment and peychyi learning as she watches..

nice scenery, nice photography tken by a nice photographer!

HAHAHAHA! jus joking! :P awww, photography is love.. ((:

i think that woman in purple top makes a good model! tsktsk! =x

after that, i rushed down to Compassvale secondary school to Pikachu United in their soccer match with V______. LOL. padon me for my STM.=\ hahas! yay! and they were on par 3-3 nil. because if you've sa them play previously, you would realise that they've improved much! ^^ though i only reached there at the last 10 minutes of the game, i could feel the tension as a supporter as well. tough match but i believe every one of them enjoyed the match, be it watching or participating. ((:

well, the wind's sure strong eh? (my hair -.-) HAHA.

Jus for laugh..

hmm, i don't know about you reading this pos but i think there's 99.99% resemblence between Jay and that Labrador retriever. LOL! :P

2008-04-11T01:10:00.005+08:00

been rather packed these few days. =x

in the morning went to meet Jason for breakfast. afterwhich, we went to return the VCDs, collected pay at Prime supermarket and headed to TP to watch The Night At the Museum on his lappy. :D met Ser meng and Wanqi at mushroom then walked all the way to Tampines West CC for badminton. i think i'm not really a sports person, i played badminton as if i'm dancing! LOL! well, anyhow it was great knowing that i had shaken off a lil' fats!! woohoo!~ :DD

after the once-in-a-blue-moon exercise i had, went to TM and CS to shop for degree-less specs with Newell. oh btw, we walked from West Mac to interchange! whee!~ more exercise means shaking off more fats! ^^ happy! i tried on all kind of specs and really had a good laugh at ourselves. :P oops, i didn't take any pictures! >.<

yea, so went to lunch-cum-dinner with Trif and Newell and we bumped into Jeslin and Sirui! hahas, miss them so much! ^^ that was my second time eating at Mos burger! woohoo!~ really enjoyed jus catching up with this dear friend and beloved sheep of mine (: love ya Trif! <3>.< (though my love language is not gift..) hehe!

forgo-ing the rights to be understood/ justified..

was rather upset about something but thank God for using Ben Tan to speak to me. :D indeed, it was a sweet reminder: that You'll never let go of me. i still honour my promise and responses i've made to You in ARETE camp. i'm willing to be trained, use me! (:

yay! pictures time! :DD

Newell and me ^^ *twist*

us again! :P

met Yingying and Joey on the way back to TM.
really miss them too!~ loves<3

-sweet reminder. :DD

2008-04-09T00:46:00.005+08:00

last saturday...

the uber cool CG had a CG identity which is to wear red tops to service! this idea originated from our dear chrysanthemum (in Chinese) or 'priest'.... PRISSYLER NG GECK HUI!!! :DD hahas.

snapped at the bus stop while waiting for the rest to come.
pris and me. ((:

borrowed Newell's specs.. =x

here we go again! :P

and... AGAIN! hahas, the ahma style! pris never join me! LOL.

me.geckting.xueting ((:
(okay, i look funny.. -.-) lol.

shirls and pris. :D
while on the bumpy, slow and stuffy ride to our promised land..

Newell, shuhfen and joseph..
ps, ahbe, geckting were not taken as they were sitting on the same side as me! LOL!
and Lestari was not with us cuz she had smth on. =x

yay! we reached FAR EAST PLAZA! Subway too expensive so we KFC-ed instead.
look at the photo.. we merely just started eating and vola! Joseph almost finished his burger! HAHAHA! x)

should we ever wear specs again? =x

okay, you can't see this clearly but it's hilarious.
this scooter was filled with dangling Chinese new year decoration near the windshield.
and we were joking about it like how the person would react if the thingy kept slapping her face as the wind blows. LOL. :P

well, tt's all folks! ^^

2008-04-08T00:35:00.003+08:00

went for the East busing ministry meet today evening.
really got to know more about Hopekids and the vision in this ministry.
i can't wait to get involved in this Hopekids' ministry soon!!! hahas.

indeed, the kids of today.. the leaders of tomorrow!
it's best to invest in the kids and nurture them in their character and grow them in their love for God. For in near future, they'll grow up, under the grace of God, to be powerful men and women of God who truly hunger and thirst for more of God in their lives, a generation who seeks to be used by God to make an impact in this world in their lifetime! :DD

woo, i wanna dream BIG for this ministry and really hope to be used by God to make a difference in this young, vibrant, child-like YET powerful ministry! woohoo~ ^^

all for Jesus! ((:

2008-04-07T01:40:00.002+08:00

jus feeling a lil' out of place.

i guess it's normal. =\ well, then again.. my character flaws. =x
i must overcome this area! amen! :DD

Lord, bring out that joy and confidence in me more evidently! ((:

yay!~

2008-04-04T21:39:00.004+08:00

i've perservered for a year and more than that, just to see this sheep's life changed.
Not to say that God has waited for me so long to return to His arms and furthermore has already paid the price on the Cross. So what gives me the right to give up now?

God indeed opened the eyes of my heart to see what His power can do through me in many many ways, which i used to be so blinded by my own limitations and lack of faith.

Corrected by God and changed my perspective of the problem. indeed, i should always focus on God rather than my problems. (: i want to be a better shepherd! sheep, i know you may not see this but, i really really really love you from the bottom of my heart. you're a very very dear friend and someone close to my heart. hope to see you having that breakthru' soon! jiayou!~

Well well, it's really really not easy to lead someone and there's no doubt about that. However, when you see how God uses you to touch and transform that life, the feeling is more-than-satisfying. i may not be the easiest sheep to care for but i really appreciate the shepherds who took care of me, taught me, pray for me and share their lives together with me to inspire me to grow. without you people, i wouldn't have become who i am today! once again, thank YOU!!! :DD

Really want to encourage all shepherds out there! don't ever ever ever ever EVER EVER EVER, (okay, you get my point..) give up on any of your sheeps because every single soul matters to God. shepherds with unstable or unresponsive sheeps? don't fret, you're not alone because i've been there and am still facing this problem. However, there's no heart too hardened that God cannot touch, amen? continue to love them with all that you know how, labour in prayer for them and trust in God! od's hand is gonna moveeeeeeee!~ yay! ((:

i'm really very excited now. Excited to see how God is going to move in both my sheep's and my own life. i must admit that i don't have much, but with the five loaves and two fishes that i have, i'm willing Lord use me! with a restored heart and spirit, i feel like a new spiritual parent once again. learning from scratch how to give my best to my spiritual baby so that the ultimate Creator can use me to nuture her to grow to become more and more like her Creator each day. ^^

:D

:D

:D

presenting.. The Most Spastic Caregroup member of the month! *drumrolls*

NEWELL LOO JIAN WEI!!! :D
-taken at Joseph's house before CG on Wed. (:

-taken in CS toilet after the movieeeeeee!~
the whole CG went to watch Step Up 2 together after CG and Sally joined us too! ((:
the movie was great and everyone was so en-visioned to start our own dance group and dance during service! HA! boy was our CG cute >.<>
but seriously, i loveeeeee dance! really wish can learn too! ^^ whee~

boogie-ing off~

2008-04-02T04:12:00.002+08:00

Lord,
i know You allow certain things to happen for a reason.
and i really want to trust You for that because You're in total control and You know best. (:

This physical pain is indeed torturous and agonising, however, i am very very sure that You've never left me or will ever leave me an inch when i was struggling in fear and extreme pain. Hardly anyone can really identity with the recurring sharp pain that triggers every now and then, it's easy to fall in the trap of self-pity and frustration, but God.. help me to depend on You with all that i have, trusting that when You bring me to it, You will bring me through it. :D

Daddy, free me from doubts and temptations on looking at my situation and helplessness. In Jesus' name, may You turn my focus from my lack to Your abundant provision! By faith i want to conquer this battle against the physical pain together with You.

i thank You in advance,
Amen. ((:

2008-04-01T03:03:00.004+08:00

haiz, my boyfriend jus suggested a break-up.
what should i do? feeling so confused and mixed up.

i don't want to live anymore, seeing him again would be a torture.
i'm so depressed. sigh, why had things got to turn out his way?? am i not good enough for him?

i'm leaving...

if you jus believed what i've said in the earlier part of this post, I GOTCHA! =P
hahahaha, HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY! :D

[Okay, this part is NOT a joke!]
to anyone out there reading my post feeling that way, pls pls pls hear what i've got to say...

Jesus is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
i went thru' many ups and down times in life, struggled in especially this area of seeking acceptance from people. thought that i wasn't good enough and i had to be like my friends to measure up and be accepted by them. BUT, eversince i received Jesus into my life as a personal Saviour and Friend. things have changed.. for the better or rather, BEST! now i know that i can live life no longer like someone who chase after the wind but someone who can live her life to the max! :D Friends are indeed important and i have a friend who will never leave me nor forsake me, can anyone on earth give you this promise? would any friend give his/her life for you jus because he/she really loves you? my Friend has given that promise and has made it true in my life, He has also given His life for me jus because He really loves me. (:

if you want to find out more about this God i'm talking about, pls tag at my tagboard or mail me at babysummer3@hotmail.com ((: God bless.

lol, i got pranked by Pei Chyi on MSN. -.-
she told me a to-a-certain-extent-convincing story and i fell into it. rahh, how cute of me. HA! i emphasise CUTE! =x oh okays... =x hahas.

Then, next up was Lemmuel.
he told me to counsel him as he's having problems.

me: "HAHAHAHA, i don't believe you lor."
lem: "serious serious, everyone sleep already and i need someone to talk to."
me:*laughs again* "don't bluff le luh.
lem:"serious serious."
me:*giggles* "what happened."
lem: *pretends to cry* "why you laugh? i want to tell you smth before i really go and do smth silly."
me:" *laughs even louder*
background, lem talking to his friend:"help me buy bread."
me: -.- lol, i knew it.
lem:"how you know one?!"
me:"Pey chyi jus pranked me jus now. -.-"

i seriously think he's dumb. HAHA.
but frankly speaking, if he continued saying "serious, serious one.", i might jus believe. but oh well, he gave up too soon! =P

and then, i pranked NEWELL! HA!
what a historical moment! i've never pranked someone on April Fool's day before till today! hahahaha. but i have to admit.. i can't bluff people one because i'll give up easily due to feeling bad. hehe. =x yup, arete camp post will be up next! :D

wait in expectancy! :DD

2008-03-23T00:44:00.003+08:00

a few days back, i was so troubled and discouraged by the fact of the soon approaching Easter Service. feeling low not because i hate Easter but because i don't know who to invite for this Easter Service.

being in the tertiary group now, the age group of people that we want to bring to know Christ is slightly more mature. frankly, i didn't really have much friends my age in my Alma mater and the thing is; since we've just transferred not long ago, we haven't started gathering new contacts. i really felt very lost.

hmm, maybe at this point of time you may start to think :" wow, mag is so spiritual!". but i really beg to differ. i've celebrated three times of Easter in Hope and this year's my fourth, and all i was thinking at that moment was, "how can i help to bring friends so that we can hit our goal of 18?", "if everyone has a visitor then i didn't do my best to bring a friend how?". that's for the troubled part.

why discouraged?
true enough that wealth is not everything, on the other hand, there's so much things that i want to do but i can't without money. things like being debt-free as soon as possible, ending the terror of possible toothaches and of course.. short-term missions trip! rahh~

indeed it takes one bucket of blood to inspire a drop.
no matter how much i do, sheep just can't seem to respond.
tried encouraging, correcting gently, reminding and whatever-you-can-think-of to help her walk closer to God, yet to no avail. was so so so discouraged that i just kept ranting and ranting at God.

i asked God:"Why do You refuse to bless me? And why did You rather bless those we don't need money with a job than to bless me who desperately is in need of one?"

then, a sms from Shuhfen came, explaining of some miscom that my name was only sent to that company on that particular day. =x

i asked God again:"Will i really have no visitors this Easter?"

God kept silent for a moment and asked:"What does Easter mean to you?"

i understood what God was trying to tell me.
i know how does Easter come about and know it's significance,however, i've forgotten the true power of the Cross that holds the reason why we celebrate Easter. it's definitely not about numbers nor hitting our goal BUT the love of Christ that we must proclaim!

i took out my handphone and starting calling and smsing away.
out of the 50 plus contacts i've smsed, only 10 replied and Waiman said she would come!!! She came for 1st service and rededicated her life to God! woohoo~ Then, God prompted me to go on Msn to hunt for everyone and anyone whom i can invite for service. After a looooooooooong wait, my secondary school senior who promised to come for service 1 year ago, promised that he'll turn up for service the next day! yay! though he didn't receive Christ that day, through his feedback i knew that God has planted a seed in him somehow or rather. ((:

not only has God blessed me with these two visitors, He made me realised that it is not possible to serve in His ministry without love..

-i want to know You more each day!

2008-03-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

hmm, see the resemblance? HA!
this photo is posted for you to spot the difference. =x
i can't imagine if Dennis were to go for a rebond. haha!

went to church office in the morning with my CG.

Shirls was late as she went back to sleep after she woke up! so funny! =P

Due to the limitation of land (sounds so much like ss or geog), we went to join Aloy,Yiqin and Alvin who were watching a sermon by D. Joseph on Virtueous Speaking Church series-Examples of incorrect speech.Really learnt a lot. So fundamental yet essential,received a new revelation about how to use my tongue to build up the church and not to tear it down. (:

i bet Shuhfen's still wondering why we are not suppose to see D. Joseph's face. LOL.

anyhow, we all went to have lunch at a coffeeshop nearby after the great sermon. i had Char Siew rice and Teh peng gao. well, the Teh peng tasted weird to me though. Then Dennis and Shuhfen shared about their funny work experience at mac delivery and stuff. Alvin asked the few of them sitting nearby if their hands would tremble if the hand a spoon for long. And i so have to admit that i will! LOL. Thus, that's why i don't like to drink soup when i have meals outside. HAHA. maybe i need a hand guard or something... hahahaha! :D

after the hearty meal, we went back to church office for our CG's prayer meet. it was a great time of worshipping and praying for our friends that we want to see coming to know Jesus in this coming Easter! i'm so excited! i sincerely believe that if we have love God and love people, God'll bless us with the joy of witnessing our friends crossing the line to salvation! 18 is not a problem! :DD Jiayou ENGIT 4~

what happened after prayer meet?

it's a secret! *shh*

yay! karaoke next monday! ((:

2008-03-15T01:33:00.001+08:00

disappointed.

yea, that should be the word.
what more can i do to draw her closer to You oh Lord?

still, i want to trust that prayer comes a long way.
guide me, lead me, show me Your way.

2008-03-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

wow.

i realised that this blog has been rather dead for quite some time. *touchwood!* LOL.

yea, it's been 4 years 1 month and 18 days serving the Lord in the Youth ministry! hahas. :D to say long, not that long.. to say short also not that short. hees. yup, i'm really blessed and am privilledged to have served in this ministry since sec 1. Serving with the East family has taught me what love really is all about. Through many restructures, working with different people, pioneering different schools and taking up sheeps with different personalities have moulded me in maturing to grow more and more Christ-like. i must say that i'm still far far far far faaaaaaaarrrrr away from perfection, however, i'll continue to work on it through this race to the finishing line. ((:

If i'm gonna say that i wouldn't miss the youth people or East district, i would have jus sinned. Definitely, i will miss everyone in youth and the many memories created here because this is also where i started to serve God and live a life of purpose for His cause.. where i grew from a spiritual baby to a more mature child of God. thank you each and every individual in East that has made an impact in my walk with God ^^ yeah! Be it the fun times, tough times, barren times or fruitful times, i will always remember the memories of how God has blessed me with this bunch of zealous and loving people who has given their lives to build the KOG! :D

(to be continued...)

2008-02-22T23:58:00.004+08:00

Chinese New Year photos. (:
experienced love in the family for the first time since a long time ago.
thank You Lord. ^^

Chinese New Year party photos. (

yay! Springfield has another convert! ADRELIA! ^^

Hello, Love part one was awesome... can't wait for part two! :D

friends who have served and walk with me at different points in life..

i love this family of God! ^^

fond memories that will never be forgotten...

i love you people (:

-reminisces.

2008-02-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

been busy.

thinking lots, more than ever.
i seriously need a Sabbath one of these days, get myself soaked in God's presences. -spiritual SPA. ^^

drop-dead-tired. =\
falling sick with the nauseousness keep coming back worser each day.
i want to be up and jumping again! :D

CNY was great in a way. (:
it was not much of a rest to me, infact even busier. HAHA.
well, really enjoyed my own family lots. though there were quarrels here and there, i could sense the warmth of each other's love around the dinner table today. thank God for this family i'm blessed with. ((:
[shall post more about the SPF converts and CNY gatherings soon! ] =x

anyway, wanna thank God for that lady in the picture above.
TRIFANNY! whee~
yupps, we've been thru' quite alot together eversince our secondary 4 days.
really appreciate you for being a real caring and loving sheep to me.
so many things i know it's hard for you to fully understand what you're going thru' but i want you to know that you're not alone and God definitely understand your heart. take faith sheep, take faith in the things unseen! jiayou Trif, wo yong yuan zhi chi ni! ^^

2008-01-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

Lord, pls continue to sustain me and fill me with Your Holy Spirit daily.
renew my heart, soul, mind and physical strength this day as i perserver on giving my 100% utmost best in serving You and Your people. (:

must admit that sometimes it gets draining when you depend on your own strength instead of God's unlimited source of refreshment. Lord, thanks for reminding me to always depend on You in whatever i'm doing despite the smallest task i'm given to carry out. (:

less than 1 month to complete Springfield?
4 by 290208 ?
i don't want to be beaten hands down by time, my own spiritual life or even lack of faith!!!
God please lead me, stir up a greater holy discontentment in my heart and soul!;
i really want to win SPF for Your glory!
help me dream for You and Your flock!;
i want a shepherd's heart!

by faith i come,
AMEN! :DDD

2008-01-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

wellwell,
what did u know?
O LVL RESULTS WILL BE OUT ON 24TH JAN!!! rahh.
i hope it's a good birthday present. =\

oh man, the thought of turning 17 feels so... OLD.-.-
hurhur, well.. mature would be a nicer word.^^

14th Jan: 4th year spiritual bdae!
23rd Jan: happy birthday Sylvia! :D
31st Jan: deadline of 3 by 310108! ahhhh. =x

so much to share yet so lil' time.
wait for my next post! ^^
ciaos~

2008-01-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

it's like falling from heaven to the deepest level of hell once again.

if my heart could break for souls that turn away from You,
break for those who loose their faith in You
and those that simply say they don't need You.

what more about how You felt?
how much more has Your heart been broken for those that You loved?
those people undeserving.

it hurts Lord.
when will You pour in the harvest?
when will these flock understand Your love?
God, pls help me to be patient and perserving with their growth.

-everything i need is You, my beginning my forever,

faithfully awaiting for the fulfilment of Your promises,

Carys

2008-01-09T02:27:00.000+08:00

been a mediator and counsellor this whole week.

sometimes, it is simply frustrating.
especially when you see the ugliness of this world, the hidden face behind that mask, filthy hearts filled with rage, deceit, lies and evilness. seriously, taken aback at how immature human beings can be when sorting out their feeling; people whose hearts are far away from God.

WWJD,
WWJD,
WWJD!!!

Lord, i want to stay close to Your heart.
i fear to stray away into this world of darkness.
use me Lord as a beckon of light to shine those darkness away.

i pray the world will wake up from their nightmare soon, and know that You are Lord. (:

2008-01-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

a picture paints a thousand words, and i can't agree much further to that. (:

this view is taken from my uncle's condo. that's East Coast anyway. wow eh? ^^

indeed, one day in God's presence is better than a thousand days anywhere else.

upp-ed my spiritual hunger for God and His word but i don't want to just be satisfied, i want to bring my walk with God up to another level. (: today's time spent with God was a rather tangible one, God never fails to lift me back on my feet when everything else inside me is crumbling.

what dad said jus now really hurt me, but i know i have a Father who will never fail to provide for me. this Heavenly Daddy that will always trust in me even when the whole world turn their backs against me. The Chief Shepherd that understands what i'm going thru' for His name's sake. The Alpha and Omega that promised that He'll never never leave nor forsake me. Despite any circumstances or situation, He was, is and will be with me.

This,

is the God that i serve.

with all i am, i will serve You my King.

2008-01-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

COUNTDOWN AT VIVO CITY! (:

we played Daidi and Jack until one lil' boy popped by and joined us. (:
His name is Jeckyll and he simply loves Jeslin. (as you can see from the pic above.)
well, i still have lil' Alvin! *blehs* HAHA, jkjk.

it was actually quite a boring countdown but i believe we enjoyed one another's company a lot more. (: yups, so snapped off on the train. i couldn't stay over at Jeslin's house so had to walk home alone as my last bus was long gone at that time. but thank God i met Qinning and her cg peeps after i alighted the MRT. And we walked accompained each other home halfway. well, at least! ^^ though i was rather scared, God protected me all the way till i reached home. yayness! :D (jus FYI, Tampines is not very safe at night.) yup. =x

hmm, in a wink of an eye, we bid 2007 goodbye and welcomed 2008. 2007 has been a really rollercoaster year for me. with O levels and many problems in retaining my sheeps and unfruitfulness in pioneering Springfield. so much testings especially in the area of depending on God,yes, i've struggled. however, 2007 was also a year i can testify abut God's faithfulness in my life. He brought me out of my emotional highs and lows, settled my friendship problems and revealed to me my things i've always been struggling with so that i can have a breakthrough. sent me forth with a another calling, a vision that keeps me heart pumping and a changed perspective to motivate me on the right path. for all the many things, thank You, thank You, thank You! :D

2008- a new year with a new beginning. and definately, i want to start this year right with God. (: so, here are my new year resolutions:-1. Depend on God fully for the direction and vision He's given me. 2. Upgrade the quality of my QT. 3. Love God, love people. (more than surface.) 4. rise up as a CL. 5. seeing my people completing CG08 with me!

YES! YES! YES! i really want to see my new year resolutions fulfilled! :D God, i did not forget the promise i made to You in camp. it's do or die! i'm not gonna give Satan a foothold in this, God strengthen me!!!

thus, i launch and also commit this personal goal to You: 3 by 310108! AMEN! woohoo~ (: if u're reading this, pls pray for me as well! :D

Your beloved, Carys.

2008-01-01T16:20:00.000+08:00

wahahah. finally, gonna post about East chalet!!! :D

yea, this was my 2nd East chalet! except that this time round i could stay over! wheets~

so glad Clarissa and Huilin didn't pangseh and they went. (: i prayed that Clarissa would now the importance of commitement and Huilin that she would enjoy the fellowship and come to know God soon! (:

so, we were on our way to the chalet at changi...

we were bored in the crowded bus and decided to challenge one another with my hp's games. lol >.<

yay! 3 cheers for all those who served in the chalet, helped in planning, booking the chalet, housekeeping, serve food, be part-time marias, led games, led worship, played guitar for worship and everyone who took care of one another! whee-u-wheet! the chalet was a huge success and i believe everyone enjoyed themselves very much. :D

we played crazy games and became like bread while playing the games but everyone still had real good fun! hahas. 1st pic- play some water games, 2nd pic- play a game where you've got to run to the middle to pick a sweet among the layers of flour without getting hit by the balls. and FYI, that white haired granny is ME! rahh, WINSTAR!!! =x hahahas. :D

great teaching about Finishing the work in our life-time by Dennis Loh.

the sharing about how time is realli precious, every second that jus passed we can never get back. how urgent the Great Commission to be fulfilled and so much more. every thing he shared jus made my heart pump faster and faster. schools' reopening for the secondary school students. i'm in this with East, are you? ^^

great worship led by Cheng Lee and her team. i really desired and was used by God to speak to East. God pls help me to improve in my gifting as well, i want to be used as a blessing. wanna encourage the rest out there who desire to be used by God in any area to keep asking in faith and God'll use you! :D

the video East Journey that was played during the chalet really brought back many many memories in my walk with God in the East. and below is my very first church camp; Vision-driven life camp at NUS. those who were there with me please don't kill me for uploading this pic. =x hahas, warning: DON'T LAUGH KAY? =P

there. i didn't know i was so toot in the past. =x

hahas, well but we've grown from glory to glory yea?

hahas! especially our hairstyles. LOL.

oh my gosh! look at those eyebags. unglamness. =\

hahas, that's the result of staying up the whole night.

took this photo with...(i forgot her name! =x) whoopsy, at the last day of the chalet. (:

East, go East! let's win the 39 schools together! woohoo~

i love this family of God! ~

2007-12-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

continued..

the next batch of people i want to thank...

woo~ if u happen to see her around on saturday or during cg, there's nothing wrong with your eyes. HAHA. yups, though Sirui's not under me anymore, i wanna thank God for her life. God realli showed me His faithfulness thru' a changed life. from one that made many excuses to come for cg and services to one that commits and serves with the cg. truely, it takes one bucket of blood to inspire a drop. but who cares!! She kept her promise during the last shepherding and from then, her life is no longer the same. yay! jiayou Sirui! God will use anyone who is willing to put their hands into the plough and trust in Him! (btw, that pic is taken in X29 camp! :D )

haha! spastic Melissa! =x yepps, wanna thank God for her for always encouraging me when i start to sigh and everything. hahas, she has been a very caring sister who is always aware to meet my needs. though we're in a different cg le, she still takes opportunities to catch up with me! so sweer hor? hahas. yups,Mel, though we've been thru' a lot together along the way, wanna encourage you to keep on keeping on! ^^ Damai, Damai, Damai!!! :D

erhem, we're both straight! don't xiang wai! lol. yea, this woman here i realli am very grateful to God for, haha. SERENE SOON YU MEI!!! :D yups, serving in different ministry, attend different service, in different stages of life, yet she is someone whom i know will always be there for me no matter what happens. (esp. whenever i'm locked out of my house!) hahas, i guess distance doesn't determine how strong our friendship is eh? so glad to have you in my life gal. jiayou in tertiary! wanna encourage you to continue to fix Your eyes on Jesus as You run this race with Him! you're not alone in this, i'll always be here for u. ((: loves~

tada! here's my spiritual buddy; HUIJUAN aka RAYNA!!! <3
we stay quite near each other, thus, occasionally we get to meet up for lunch or dinner. (: though serving in different ministries, i know our heart for God is still beating at the same frequency. she's someone whom i can realli be myself whenever i'm with her. we can simply just chat about anything under the sun, moon or stars! HAHA. yups, different struggles and frustrations but somehow in one way or another, we can identify with each others' feelings and spur each other to keep trusting in God. if i have to name a person who understands me, her name will come to my mind. go you, budbud! all the way for Jesus! ^^

yes you, Siewsiew! ahahah! as you can tell from the pic above...

siewling is someone whom i've served with in East E cg. though we may not be super duper close, she's someone who never fails to add colour to my life. (: given her quiet nature, she still does takes initiative in talking to people around her when she senses 'bored-ness'. she's been a great support to her leaders and is also a very encouraging sister. it took me quite a lot eversince i responded to the call of rising up as a CL. beaten by the fact of my unretained sheeps and the fact of being a grad, she never fails to remind me of our CL goal and that we're in this together. without her encouragement and trust, i believe i wouldn't have keep pushing on till today. thanks gal, SIEWSIEW you rawk! :D

HIAKHIAK! hahas, trademark of Peiqing! >.<

PQ is realli a very trusting and loving ex-shepherd. she is someone who will go the distance jus to meet the needs of people around her or even jus to make them feel loved. i still remember there was a time when she came to my house to help me with the household chores so that i could be faster in completing them and go for cg. *aww, so sweeeeet!* HAHA! Aside from being super pastoral, PQ is also one of the leaders that i dare say that i will follow even at the expense of my life as she follows God. She always trusts in every single individual of her people and sees the potential in them. she doesn't lead her people by purely emotions but more of what would Jesus do in every situation. for that, i saluate this strong woman of God. :D her corrections, sincere encouragements and wise leadership has aided me to grow in God alot when i was under her care. not only does she believes in her people's growth, she also leads them further towards exponential growth and cultivating a deeper level of intimacy with God. when it comes to this great leader, i can go on and on for pages. however, if there's something that i must say to her would be.. thank you and thank you once again.. (: PQ!, no matter what may come our way, i know you'll be one of those who'll continue running this race of life with God victoriously. JIAYOU! :D

last but not the least... BERNADETTE!!! :D

she's sure someone who honours her word very much. even if it's jus a sms, when you need her, she'll be right infront of you the next moment. she's indeed someone who serve others with so much humility and meekness. though she may appear to be rather petite and small in size, her heart for God and His people will definately blow you away! jus simply look at how she communicates to the contacts/ visitors and also her lifestyle of evangelism and you'll know what i mean. (: Bern is a cheerful dudette who will never frown infront of others. she's someone who really never says die, always giving her utmost best in whatever she does. i truely believe that the KOG and many are blessed by her.^^ go Bern! win CCHMS for Jesus! God will back you up de! love ya! :D

2007-12-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

Fly away -by FFH.

Ok you win, you caught me day dreaming again
About our sudden evacuation
Ok I give in, I can't help but wondering
But it seems I can't get enough information

Curiosity has got a hold on me
Tell me how it's gonna be - when
One day I'll see you coming back for me
And all together we'll fly away
One day I'll hear that trumpet loud and clear
And all together we'll fly away
O how I long for the day
When we'll fly away

Don't ask me why I keep starin' at the sky
It's just I'm lost in anticipation
I know it will be in the twinkling of an eye
It's just I get lost in my imagination

FLASHBACKS!!!
haha, this song really uplifted my mood by many folds.
as usual, my Christmas(s) at home are almost never pleasant.
However, God reminded me : "The reason for the season.".

Emotions that i can't hold back at the thought of the arrival of 2008 and the marking of the end of 2007. Many tears, pain, sweat, laughter, fun times, life shared, touching moments, testings and victories has walked me thru' my 2007. But most of all, if there's something that God has changed my perspective about would be.. people.

i never knew how to love someone before i came to know God.
to me, loving someone is something that i could never grasp in the past.
being practical; to show out with actions, words and gifts were my conception of what love really is- superficial, realistic and sometimes, i even thought that there's no such thing as true love on Earth.with that concept in mind, many of my actions of love were misinterpreted too.

maybe due to my insecurities, i was very afraid of being myself or rather how others would look at me. i lived my life according to the world and my friends' demands, but i realised that i was never happy.

Love at home seem to me also rather conditional.
there's always a void among each of us individuals that we don't show each other how we really feel or what we're thinking. i used to compared my family with the Christian families and i saw a huge difference. i would always say to myself ," Why isn't my family like theirs?". if there's such thing as true peace, true joy and true love,... there must be a God, there must be this Jesus everyone is talking about.

i received Christ when i was primary 5. i can still remember vividly the scene of where and how i received Jesus into my life that very day. the people were genuine, i saw the clearer picture of my life.. that's the very first time that i felt that i belong somewhere.

due to parental objections, i stopped going to that Sunday school.
however, God always has His plan, amen? haha. i was brought to yhope when i was sec 1. there and then i re-dedicated my life to God and started to know Him more. Half a year later, i committed myself to serve God and that's when my exciting journey with God begins. (:

to cut the long grandma story short, to think back, it's now my third year plus plus serving God already and God has never failed to show His unconditional love to me thru' His faithfulness and the people around me; especially the family of God. i can't deny that i'm not perfect yet but i've seen a breakthrough in my life in the area of love this year. :D i know i can be myself, uncover my weaknesses like no body's business because no one other than God is fit to condemn me! (: in this family, i know who i am and who i can be with Christ in me. Love comes from God because God is love and love is definitely not what the world dresses it to be. true love do exists! :D have you given someone a meaning to Christmas this Christmas? (: the harvest don't just end here, jiayou people!!! :D

now, drum rolls please...
these are the following people whom i especially want to thank God for this Christmas...

i wanna thank God for clone!!! Jingjing! for always sharing her life with me. being with her is simply fun and comfortable. :D her encouragements to me during my down times and being so understanding when i was doing my Os. thanks for everything clone, i really enjoy your presence in my life. ((: Love ya lots! ^^

also, wanna thank God for Yanyu!!! :D hahas. she's one of the leaders who has never failed to inspire me towards growth and leading my own group. (: Trust that she built upon me encouraged me to attempt new things for God and also to go the extra mile. really wanna affirm her of her never-say-die spirit towards serving God and loving people. go yanyu! we will follow you as you follow God! ^^

tada! my clone number 2! :D hahas. really wanna thank God for her life too. thanks for offering your time to accompany me to mug during my O lvl days. i still remember the cream you gave me when i was teething and the fun times we had studying together at your house and the library. really love sharing life with you as well. you've been a great encouragement to me by your growth in the area of being initiative and your undying zest for more of Jesus!

my mix breed shepherd (pigcow in Chinese. =x) HAHA. really thank God for your tolerance despite me being unreasonable at times. thanks for showing me the meaning of humility thru' your life. i appreciate the change you've made in order to make me feel loved. thankiew!!! :D

yo! hahas, gotta admit.. sometimes you're realli spastic cum retarded! =P
anyhow, wanna thank God for your life. your zealousness for God has influenced many others to go all out for God too! thank God for you for those few lines you said to me online, they really meant alot. :D let's jiayou together! CLCLCL! woosh! ^^

hmm, part two to be continued... :D

2007-12-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

Five loaves and two fishes. -by corrinne may

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look Thousands were listening to the stories of one man He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand The hours passed so quickly, the day turned into night

Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight The boy looked in his lunchbox, at the little that he had He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus, the kindness in His smile

And the boy cried out with the trust of a child, he said: "Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as You will Isurrender Take my fears, my inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all To feed them all."

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer So I'll give You every breath that I have Oh Lord, You can work miracles All You need is my "Amen"

So, take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as You will I surrender Take my fears, my inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all I hope it's not too small

I trust in You, I trust in You

So, take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as You will I surrender Take my fears, my inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all No gift is too small.

indeed, this song has greatly impacted me. As 2007 marches close to the end, what would be my conclusion for this whole year spent on Earth with God? frankly, many things i realli do feel very limited to.. time. No, i don't want to be emotional. i can jus go on rattling about my limitations and weaknesses, how much i think i'm so far from my goal for God. However, i pray that God will help me to look to Him for He is a God of possibilities. with all that i have now, my five loaves and two fishes, Lord pls make it a miracle.. use me as a vessel of Your love.

-in His magnificant name, Amen.

2007-12-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

for i stand in awe of Your great love..

God, i pray that You'll enlarge Your servant's territory!
nothing describes my heart's cry better than this song..

Hillsong United - Devotion

Verse 1
I've been running, trying to be one who sees
I've been working, salvation out on my knees
There is nothing better than knowing
That we are redeemed
Unbelieving trusting in creative hands,
I am praying for our world to bow to your plan
And this one thought is unmistakable
I take up my cross and follow you Lord

Chorus
When you stand the tall trees and mountains bow
When you speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees

Verse 2
Unforgiven, my savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness
Undelivered, but it doesn't seem right
Unless I keep my eyes focused on the savior who gave his live
In the middle of a world that denies it believes
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
And it's to take up my cross and follow you Lord

Bridge
I will take up my cross and follow Lord where you lead me
And I will take up my cross and follow wherever you go

-discouraged no more, all the way for Jesus Christ! (:

2007-12-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

yes, testings have started.

was challenged to go beyond my comfort zone.
sometimes, to be genuine, we have to go the extra mile for others.
different people receive love differently and i cannot just do what i expect they would understand.

met up with two p5 contacts with Bernadette last Friday. Initially, we only planned to eat lunch together. Then afterwhich, they brought us along to a playground which they said they wanted to check out because they heard that it was haunted. When we reached the indoor playground, they asked the 'golden' question... "What game shall we play?". Upon hearing that, my legs turned jelly. hahas. well, if you know me... I DON'T LIKE TO RUN AROUND OR PERSPPIRE! especially when i intended to evax after sow-ing. =x So, i jus bit my tongue and agreed. maybe God's hinting me to exercise more. lol. the girls were so energetic, and man, can they run! i guess it's easy to guess that i was the one to chase them around as i got caught almost every time. -.- hurhur. And after running, jumping, climbing up and down for almost 2 hours, i was as good as gone. lol.

i told them that we had to leave as we had something else on at that time. (evaxing). However, they insisted in following us along and we can't possibly reject them like that right? Hmm, so we went ahead to the interchange to get drinks and walk around. Then, one of the girls requested to take neoprints together. i was rather reluctant as i was rather broke as the money i had was meant for emergency purposes and i didn't see the need of taking neoprints when we can snap some photos conveniently with our handphones! Thank God for Bern who suggested that she'll treat us, i was drawn out of the awkward situation. Though i paid her back, i admire her spirit of willingness to go all the way to win their hearts for Christ! :D

indeed, pruning is tough. but Lord, help me to cling on to Your promises as i trust that the vision will soon come to past! amen! ((:

-i am but nothing compared to my Maker.

2007-12-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

beyond surface friendships,
i believe i've met my camp objectives. (:

other than running to and fro for medics and mama shop duty, this camp i got to spend more time with the cg and other individuals too. not to mention, got to know people from other districts as well. yay! this time, many new peeps joined us for camp for the very first time too! people from EA1 like linhui, sirui, angelin (considered bah cuz last camp she went home on the first day as she was sick.) and shih ching. whee~ *claps* yea, and here goes our cg's new lingo : "Cute what."..."Natural." LOL. =P -proudly brought to you by the highly influential Yeo Sirui! ROFL. :D

as i could still vividly remember, the third day of the camp was the most emotional one. the cg's covenant to one another, so genuine and sincere.. words that are brought forth from the deepest of each of our hearts. truly moved. not forgetting the song that we sang during Resonance : I love this family of God. when the yhope alumni came to hug me, also did my spiritual buddy! i guess some things just can't be expressed merely by words. though not serving in the same ministry, we know that we're kept close to each other's heart. ((:

have went a long long way to only discover something that i should have confessed to God long ago. but i still believe it's never too late for a repentant heart to experience a breakthru'. :D it's really difficult to explain why i made the decision to respond to the call of rising up the third time and this time it had to be in camp. a myriad of emotions was welling up in me when i made the decision. doubts, uncertainty, discouragements, fear.. you name it, i felt it. i stepped forward because i knew i've not completed what i have been called out to do yet. though with just about two months left and all, i just want to give my very best in all that i do for Christ. if it's God's plan for me to move to another land, at least i know i've done my part by placing that full-stop in a life-transforming story in my lifetime.

i've been thinking,
what does it mean to be a Care Leader?
is it just the skills? people-oriented qualities? stature? character? being sacrificial?
Personally, i came to a conclusion.. it's a little of everything but most importantly loving God and loving people. isn't God's ministry all about people? isn't those lost souls what God's heart break for? skills and character can be built but if you don't love God and His people, you cannot lead them to love God and His people either.

God knows me inside out.
i was discouraged of the fact that my sheeps aren't retained at all.
but God encouraged me with His word, [1Peter5:2]. clear direction from God for the leftover time i have left. not to mention, sirui starting to serve, commit and even came for camp was all because of God's faithfulness. my Goliath is huge so that God can reveal more of His power in my life!

if God is not the Lord of all, then He's not the Lord at all.
no sitting on the fence, i choose to cling on and fight on.
X29 will leave a legacy of this generation. jiayou ppl! ^^

Hosanna -by Hillsong united.

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes

Yeeeah

I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

[Chorus]
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest x2

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

[Chorus]

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I walk from earth into Eternity

[Chorus] x2

Hosanna in the highest

-my chapter to write.

2007-12-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

hoho, backkkkkkkkkk!

had a rather bad e xperience with blogger when all that i've type for a few hours just went *poof*, gone. -.- oh man, guess it's time to apply what i've learnt during Word For Life. - Patience. haha.

anyhow,
really excited to set aside this time to especially map out what i want to achieve or accomplish during this post Os period. no more slacking!woohoo~

1. complete one Christian literature by end Dec.
2. loose 2 kg by Jan.
3. compose a worship song.
4. clear debts by Feb!
5. shss-5!, sfs-7! -end Jan.
6. 2 more sheeps by end Dec.
7. kbox!
8. learn a dance.
9. missions trip. (hopefully, can go for next yr's!)

all i want for Christmas is...
1. a Chritstian literature.
2. a puppy! (dream on luh! -.-) HAHA.
3. Huilin to come and know God. ^^
4. to lead my very own group! woo~
5. eye patch (to remove eye rings/ eyebags!) hees.
6. proper vocal training lessons.
7. breakthroughs in various areas (shall share again next time (: )
8. good L1R5.
9. 5566's Dec album.
10. anything got to do with Spongebob!!!

but ultimately, i really want to see myself growing exponentially, having breakthrough in the areas which i've yet to overcome. :D

2007-11-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeha!

not dead, not dead!

hahas, it's been quite some time since i last blogged.

camp's drawing near, some things still quite unsettled.

one of such is money. rahh. felt rather misunderstood-ed that day during the meeting but oh well, my conscience's clear and i'll never loose focus for such a silly reason. boo =\

this shall be a short post i guess, haven't realli put my thoughts together. haha. yea, here's a photo of a younger version of Alvin lim. =P (well, apparently this kid here also has the same name and sir name as this brother.) and the amazing thing is.. he can memorise his IC no. when he's only 7!! wheets~

on the bus to Nayang poly for the ARISE event..

alvin and me! he's so kawaii yea? ^^ (i know i look weird -.-)

hahas.

that's all folks! (:

2007-11-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

and yes, that's Kranji Primary School!!! tada~ x) yup, found this job which is to bring primary schools kids for trial as a programme faciliator. though the first day at work i was 1 hr and 5 mins late, thank God they didn't scold or anything. *phew* =\

well, the primary 6 kids were rather witty and difficult to organise. it was like having to lead 12 children and make them follow you whereever you go. hahaha. they kept asking for my age,however, according to the company's policy, we're not allowed to disclose our age to them. so, i was happily gloating when they kept guessing like sec 1, sec 3 and so. but after that, one of the girl commented "wah, you're sec 1 but i'm taller than you leh!" -.- boohoo. hahaha. all in all, it was rather a fun experience and also the trial helped me to exercise too! hehe, kill two birds with one stone! wahaha. =P

one thing that i've learnt the most from this experience should be leadership. it's somehow like a cg setting where there are people who are rather different in their character and personality. when working as a team to solve puzzles to get clues to the next check point and so, each individual had their own opinions and views. as my team has a girl who fell sick in the midst of the game and another boy who wanted to go to the toilet, our team had to slow down quite a lot because we had to go from place to place together. well... due to my poor social studies knowledge, our team also went to the wrong places a few times. =x and so, people started to complain about the heat and feeling tired from running helter skelter. however, everyone had fun in the end. it was especially trying when during the game, a boy from my team went missing. in the end, we found him sitting with the girl who was sick. he looked so blur! haha! yup, leading a group is indeed not easy but i believe if everyone takes ownership of their team/ group, the team/ group will advance forward together. :D

2007-11-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

yesyes, it's time to give this blog a lil' revamp and reviving since O lvls are over!!!
yeehaw~ :D

as promised, rewarded myself to a whole day retreat with God today!
to me, retreat with God doesn't mean you have to pray, worship or go to some soliditary place in order to meet God. most importantly, it's that heart desire to dwell in His presence. (:

this is the happiest day of my life after walking with God for close to four years.
i just have to share this joy in me, can't contain it.
don't get me wrong, it's not like i've never been happy before but today changed my perspective about life and about being happy. -true happiness.

well, though many a times we say that happiness is something that we fight for in order to achieve or happiness comes from the fruits of our labour. true enough but only to a certain extent. ever have that feeling of being among a group of friends yet felt so left out? the feeling of accomplishing much yet still feeling empty inside? i believe that's not a feeling that only some might have or have before because we're afterall only human. that's maybe because sometimes we tend to do life, work, ministry or even relate with others without God.

perhaps sometimes we may complain about the heavy workload, piles of homework to complete, frustrating relational problems that drives you up the wall, problems in ministry or even asking why is it taking so long for that friend to say yes to Jesus? isn't all these the results of us not completely trusting in Him in whatever we do?

i've learnt.
status quo isn't about everything.
you maybe a CL, UL, SDL, DL or even a pastor but once you miss the point of what serving God is really about, you miss everything. it's not about how much we do for God, but rather, what is our attitude towards doing the things of God. nono, definitely not trying to put down the leaders but i believe with all my heart that even if you're not a leader or not a leader as yet, God can still do amazing things thru' you! ^^ it's all in God's perfect timing. (:

yup, happiness can simply come from that very moment when your friend decide to receive Jesus as his/her personal Saviour, from spending time with your family over dinner or even listening to God speak while you're resting/(slacking). hahas. and that's what happened today. everything was very very simple and normal yet i experienced what true happiness and joy really means in God dictionary. though at times we may become skeptical about being joyful, especially when things don't turn out right. but lil' did we know that actually, it's thru' those times when we choose to take joy in troubled circumstances that true joy comes to reside in our hearts. -the joy of the Lord is our strength! :D

i am definitely renewed spiritually and mentally!
physically... erm, by end of this week! woo~
i live,i breathe, i serve because i love Him from deep down. (:

2007-10-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD!

nope, Os have not ended. but well, sooooooon. (:
can't wait for 6th Nov, marks the end and beginning of many things.

at the very top of the things-i-want-to-do-after-my-Os list, something i've been waiting for a few months already, mega retreat with God! whee-u-wheet! ^^

i know it full well,
something's amiss.
deep within me someone resides, a yearning for something and someone.
i jus want to ask for a day's off, just one day away from the world and my obligations.
me and God, jus the both of us..

-friend or acquaintance?

2007-10-27T02:49:00.000+08:00

hmm..
hmmm...
mmmmmmmm...
mmmhmmmmmmmmmm..

lol.

i guess i need to recollect my thoughts,
not in the particular best of mood.
but well, TGIF! (:

how true, i don't wish to think about it anyways.

2007-10-25T11:19:00.000+08:00

thanks to all who've helped me and cheered me on for this crucial point of time. (:

thanks for the cards and smses you hunks and babes sent me! HAHA.

anyhow, jus to showcase a few of the things that 3 person made which made me feel very loved. :D

1. the nicely decorated foolscap from Jiajia.

2. the cute lil' scroll-like note with a "jiayou" keychain around it by Daixuan.

3. last but not the least, the card with my pretty name on it. lol. this card was from Shuning ((: realli appreciated it when she popped by when we were studying then wrote this card for me. realli thank God for her life. she was my ex-senior in shss and lil' did i expect that we will be serving together in the same church like now! whee~ you chose the right path and i honour you for that. (:

2007-10-23T11:48:00.000+08:00

yes, it's me.

i'm blogging now because my brain jus seemed to shut off from me.
nothing i read seems to make any sense, can't remember nor absorb and understand.

2 hrs and 15 mins more to A maths paper 2. =\

help me! help me! help me!

in faith i pray that God will make a way,
Amen. (:

2007-10-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

finally had the time to listen to the sermon Upgrading Our Love by Pastor Wayne Cordeiro.

learnt lots, God spoke much.

indeed, upgrading our love is never the popular choice as it takes your blood and sweat to the test. no easy feat i should say.

"Love is less on emotions but more on character."
something that sometimes i overlooked, the reason why i love.

one thing that struck me hard was when Pastor Wayne talked about not to give love to only those whom we think deserve it. there and then, more than obvious the fact that, i am still a sinner. i confess, i'm not that loving after all. God aptly reminded me of the sharing shared during WAM nite - Jesus came for the sick, the poor, the weak and not for the healthy and rich. i am weak, poor and sick. what more do i have the right to choose who to love?

things happening now are never what i wish to experience and go thru'. i've failed to love people like how God did. people disappoint us at times but is love just so superficial? so unreal? i want to upgrade my love for God and for people. for my sheeps, for my family and for the lost. it's easy to love with your lips but difficult to love with your heart. loving others with all that you've got is good but loving others with all that God has is even better! i want to choose the latter.

Lord, help me upgrade my love a notch higher for that's the reason why i live.

2007-10-18T16:38:00.000+08:00

aye,
feeling horrible now.

went all soggy after 3 hrs of continuous vomitting.
didn't get to sleep well and today was O lvl science practical. =\
bummers! lol. the chem part for the practical was _________.
rahh, gonna do better for written paper and MCQ! (:

after practical today, i started to wonder again if i would have to retake my Os next year. things jus seem so impossible, out of my reach.

when there's a will, there's a way?
mug till you drop. lol.

2007-10-16T13:55:00.000+08:00

many things have been happening recently,
memories that jus seem to reside in my most random thoughts..

if there's one word to sum up my myriad of feelings now, it would be nostalgia.
friendships, relationships and kinship. what is that knot that seems to separate each one of us further apart? why that void of awkwardness and unfamiliarity?

i wish i knew.

may be unintentional or simply on purpose,
personally, i think it's in a person's principle rather than being biased.
hurt. is it better to allow misunderstandings to go on? sigh.

anyhow, on a lighter tone.
i'm glad i made the decision to go for WAM nite yesterday.
though i didn't study at all, God made His imprinting of my identity in Him new once again thru' the word spoken. learnt lots, things repented and surrendered.

my identity- Child Of God. it's not jus about the head knowledge.

i jus want to live a simple yet extraordinary life for my Creator, a life that is not hindered by any boundary of people's judgement nor my own negative perspective of things. change the way i look at situations and people, blot out my past, mould my heart and make me new once again.

we are Children of God, who possess the Spirit of the Holy God in us. thus, we can be people with the Spirit of excellence, people who stands out of the crowd- different and influential. we don't influence people with our words or actions only. most importantly, we influence people with our spirit, being salt and light.

well, suffering is the best tool for God to soften our hearts so that He can deposit His treasures in our hearts. and i want to be ready and willing to be tested by God. my faith goal is not determined nor wavered by what others think or say because the crux of serving is my relationship with You. so i don't care! hahas. =P yups, i've learnt a lot thru' the sharing and if you would like to check out what i've learnt, do ask me yea? i'm more than happy to share (:

huilin and me at Ikea. ^^ (psst, give yourself a chance to experience life to the fullest soon yea?) (:

okay, i look funny with that vake smile. -.-
charmaine and me. continue to be zealous for God, sheep!

clarissa, me and my prince charming! >.<

realli thank God for my sheeps and Huilin.
asked me out yesterday and yet didn't complain when i told them i had a meeting to go to halfway. that's why we went to Ikea, not too far away. :D
yayness, come and serve God together with me yea? ^^ loves!

2007-10-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Joy and Carys( the meaning of love in Greek.) before Enjoy It prayer meet.

Caijuan and me.
went to my house to take a nap after studying overnight at West Mac. ^^
her first bus comes at 5:21am and the time was 5:09am, so... sleep first lor! =P

Jackie, youngest brother, isn't he an eyecandy? :D
hahas, he told me one day.. "can those jie-jie(s) stop calling me cute?, i've grown up le!" LOL. btw, that sticky candy in his hand helped to 'pull' out Benny's about-to-fall-out-any-moment tooth. hurhur -.-''

Trif and me on the train to service.
oh.. okok, i tiptoed. -.-

Serene and mua after celebrating Keryln's bdae.
woo, ex-EC4 gathering! ^^

eh, suppose to act ghastly but... LOL.
well, that's me, jing and Linghui -> hmm, she looks most like a _______.
hahas, if u're wondering why we're all so pale.. it was after a 'flour fight' and i almost died screaming. haha.

mashed potato with a lil' creative touch.
smile! don't worry, for the Lord my God is with You! ^^

shuhfen and me at the busstop after cg. (:

trif and me at sch's toilet! HA! =P
omgosh! i look faaaaatttttt! =\ lol.

melissa and me before Enjoy It prayer meet. ((:
gonna miss her lots! we've been serving together for some time already.
yups, keep growing and inspiring others with Your walk with God! jiayou~ :D

yea, really love spending time with people.
it's doesn't need to take money, gifts and cards to appreciate someone. sometimes it's jus that single moment invested in another person's life that can be so divine. (:

high-end note: to study as if God's victory is already in my hands. ((:

2007-10-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

carys loves her spirtual budd! ^^

well, realli love the time spent together. shared loads of deep stuff and view points about certain stuff. encouraging one another to continue pressing on, i believe that's what friends are for eh? (: hmm, lots to say but for now my mind is blank. lol.-.-

that's all. :D

2007-10-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

here goes! recap! (:

something you don't see everyday,

1.mind you, the cigarette is jus some powder-puffing thingy- a fake. =x lol.
2.the giant mineral water? taken outside Plaza Sing after service.
3. my clone's mattress cover. =x
4. pastries can look adorable, can't they? -Q bread's creation.

my fellow muggers! :D

can you spot a particular person who's having holiday now? rahh! haha.

mugging will never draw us apart yea? (:

trying to get out the pose she wanted to do together, not looking at her luh! HAHA.

uh-hah! gotcha! =P love ya sheepy Trif. :D

sirui and her lollipop. haha.

aww.. handbell days together.. study hard Clarissa, hope to see ya after EOYs! :))

well, not forgetting..
the junk that we ate while our brain juice gets suck dry slowly..

went to Tampines Regional Library to mug with Clone 2, Ying.
quite a fruitful time spent. but well, jus wasn't quite used to the super condusive environment. lol.

nice scenery eh? got to watch the sunset too! ^^

well, guess what?
i'm teething!!! ahhh! pain =\
thanks for the Bonjela, Ying! ^^
i know i prayed for wisdom but God decided that a wisdom tooth should be given as well. lol. not much appetite so campbell was the next best choice for my dinner. (:

woo,
tired.
hope u enjoyed reading! ^^